I came across songs that has some of the way I feel!
I listened to this when I was wad? 6 yrs old? Now I just came across it in the net sia!
Drowning:
Don't pretend you're sorry
I know you're not
You know you got the power
To make me weak inside
Girl you leave me breathless
But it's okay 'cause
You are my survival
Now hear me say
I can't imagine life
Without your love
Even forever don't seem
Like long enough

'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

Maybe I'm a drifter
Late at night
'Cause I long for the safety
Of flowing freely
In your arms
I don't need another life line
It's not for me
'Cause only you can save me
Oh can't you see
I can't imagine life
Without your love
And even forever don't seem
Like long enough

'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist
'Cause you're the air
That I breathe

Everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
And baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning your love

Baby I can't help it
Keep me drowning
In your love
I keep drowning
In your love
Baby I can't help it
Can't help it no, no

'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

The others are just as nice, but I've got Bio studies to do so I'll leave it at that.

how you're feeling today*
How are you feeling right now? Bored, Bent on nt thinking abt somethings, so tat's y I'm on this quiz.
If you could be anywhere where would it be? Heaven.
If you could be with anybody right now who would it be? I dont think the person would like to see her name here, so blank.
What is one word that describes you today? Annoyed.
What is one thing that has happened today? I drenched Brian by making him walk back with me in the rain. hehe^^
Who was the last peson you talked to? My sister.
What is the last thought you had? I dowan to study for tmr's common test.
Who was the last person on your mind? Same person as Question 3, so I wont mention.
What were you thinking about them for? Its a very weird habit, nt preoccupied, first thought=person.
Did you hug anybody today and who were they? nope, no one.
Did you feel like your normal self today? not exactly, today was a bit... different. ^^
How was your day in general? weird, irritating, boring, stupid, take your pick.
What is one word that describes it? I tot tat was wad I just answered.
What is one thing you regret you did today? getting Brian caught in the rain, he's pissed off and's complaining abt feeling itchy or something ike tat. X)
what is one thing you wished you did today? Spend it with the person I had in mind, which will never happen.
what made today different from any other day? I think I failed Physics test o.o
what was the last thing you ate? Teriyaki Rice

*relationships*
Do you have a bf/gf? no.
what is their name if you have one. i dont hv 1!!
are you happy with them? no gf.
did you ask them out or did they ask you out? i hv no gf!!!
what do you like most about them? "THEM"!? If I had I would only have 1, I DONT!
what do you like least about them? =.=
why do you like them at all? I WOULD Like them because they seem to have a gd character, attractive, intelligent, can click well, etc, in the case I'm in the now, the last one doesnt fit, but I'll persevere till I finally give in somehow, hopefully.
are they attractive? Is Santa Claus Attractive?
do you feel like it is going anywhere? I wish I did, But its nt, at all. The only place I'm going to is to Kota Tinggi =.= next tuesday =.=
how many people asked you out this year? Asked out? As in out gf/bf? This year? definitely none, duh!!
how many did you turn down? A long time ago, One.
how many did you say yes to? None.
do you wish you said yes to anybody you said no to? No. I know who I like and I'll not like anyone else.
have you asked anybody out this year? Counting the last 365 days, Yes.
if so how many? One, the same one I've been talking abt and cant mention.
how many said yes? None.
how many said no? None as well, there was no reply, for Eons.
who was the last peson to break your heart? Same person.
whose heart were you last to break? I'm nt gonna answer this one. Its long over alr anw.
who really likes you? 2 Ppl, the one that was in the previous Question just before this, and anoher one who I shall nt name cause I told u, I only like 1 person and this person is nt her.
who do you like that doesnt like you? This Questions are getting very stupid, askin Same questions with different words.
have you ever been in love? yes
do you still love that person if you have been in love? yes
what is one quality the significent other must have? A nice character.
what is one thing you have zero tolerance for? I dno. Cold War?
have you ever cheated on a boy/girl? no!
if there is one thing you want an ex to know what is it? I never had one, cause I've never started one.
how many exes are your friends? EX YOUR HEAD. NO EX.
how many ex's do you hate? =.=
do you wish you could have any back? =.=
are you happy where you are right now with relationships? no. the worst thing I've ever tried to be successful in and failed miserably to the extent the great depression seems like a spec of dust is BGR, but it doesnt matter, I dont care abt status, I care abt finding the right person, end of story.
if you had to pick one girl to date thats your friend who would it be? why? I wont.

*finish the sentence*
lets run through-My science textbook with my hands over my eyes, Bio tmr guarantee die.
i am so-frustrated, bored, irked, pick one.
i wish i were with- someone.
i cant believe- I'm nt studying for tmr's test, yay me rite? sht. Tmr Die alr la, once i'm done with this I'm gonna have to mug again.
oh man i'm so- bored.
you're such a-bore.
why did you- not tell me about it sooner?
i love- her smile, her character, her everything.
i hate- really lame people in my class.
i miss- my dog T.T lol!!
i need- to study =.= sht.
omg why- do i have to go through all these dumb tests.
my favorite store is-NTUC.
i am in love with that- girl in my sch??
the best season is-Winter, snowballs.
i love you because- you're different??
my best friend is- Russell!! Brian!! can I say both? LOL!
he/she is my best friend because- We have gone through lots together, we share common interests, etc
my favorite subject is- Choices Programme.
why is- my attitude so weird around specific ppl? Suddenly become a 180 degree screw up.
where are- my holidays!?!?

*the first word coming to mind*
love-romantic?
hate-asshole
cute-someone
funny-kay rui botak head
smart-knowledge
pretty-someone
hot-someone
strong-Zamri
short-Tat guy from sec2 (i tink)
skinny-Ko-Yi-Jie!! ZHENG RONG!!
famous-Jay Chou!
popular-bookshop ^^
nerdy-Alston (He just told me he was one today, through his own mouth)
my best friend-Russell THE PRO!! Lolz!
my worst enemy-Those Jerks in 3A'2009 most of them.
my best family member- my dad

*what do you look like*
eyes-dark brown
hair-Black
weight-51 kg more or less
height-171
style-less sociable, dislike group work, dislike vulgarities up to some point, Long fringe (forced to cut short a week ago), talk/sms better one on one with ppl i dont feel tensed up talking/smsing to or I'll make countless slips and mistakes (Dno why but I've learnt from experience), comfortable, relaxed (most of the time)..

*true or false*
i am a virgin-true =.= redundant question.
i am in love-true (but the person is nt with me)
i wish i were sombody else-true
i am handsome-false
i am truly happy-false (nt truly happy. juz happy.)

ANGER
1. Are you currently mad at someone?- I thought I was, now I dont think I blame that person anymore.
2. Which of your family members has the worst temper?- My Dad, most probably, but all the ways seldom.
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone?- A stone, mudballs, u name it, always aimed to miss tho, or I wouldnt be here now.
4.Is anyone mad at you?- Yes, someone in school who hates me more than I can hate all the people in my life put together most probably.
5. Are you usually mad?- Not for a long time. Should I be?
6. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell?- Neither, waste of energy.

EXCITEMENT
1. Has anyone ever thrown a surpriseparty for you?- No. Not anybody in their right mind would.
2. What event is coming up that you're most excited about?- Gee, what would it be? Maybe tomorow's dumb test, or maybe the next time I could see Kay Rui completely bald, that would be an enjoyable experience.
3. If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought?- This Dumb Handphone of mine will go, cracked up as it is. A couple of shirts and jackets without having funny comments from my mum. A Grand Piano, An Electric Guitar, A new laptop..
4. If you could have anything right now what would it be?- Someone.

SELF DISCOVERY
1. Name:- Justin Lee -.-
2.What's your main goal in life?- ?? become a doctor?
3. Do you want to have children?- hmmm.. Yup.
4. When do you want to die?- If I could, Right now, cause I dont see much happiness through all this suffering, be it academically, Relationships, Friends(Majority), Family, etc etc.

OPINIONS
1. Are you against gay marriage?- Yes.
2. Lower the drinking age?- Nope. I dont drink, But I Dont mind a little bit of it I suppose, if I really have to, cause I dont see the point in drinking at all.
3. Capital Punishment?- hmmm, depends.
4. Abortion?- Yes.

LOVE
1. Do you love someone?- Yes, not that it matters either way, it never did..
2. Do you believe in love at first sight?- Yes.
3. Do you believe in love?- Define "Believe".
4. Who is it that you love?- =.= I love u for going through all this trouble and reading this load of crap.
5. How long have you loved that someone?- 2 Years plus.
6. The most "Chio" in your class- Couldnt be bothered. The person I'm eyeing is nt in my class and she'll be the only one I'm going for, hopefully that'll make a difference.

Q & As
Q: how many beds did you lay in today?- =.= what kind of Question is this? 1-My own.
Q: What color shirt are you wearing?- Black.
Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?- Breath.
Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?- I'm in homewear. I dont carry cash in my home cloths =.= None.
Q: Is Tom on your Top friends list?- Who the hell is Tom?
Q: Look to your left. What's there?- A fishtank.
Q: What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed?- Borrow Clothing? Yea, rite, like I bother.
Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?- Blogs mostly.
Q: Do you have plants in your room?- Nope.
Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?- Nothing On Me, Just In Me.
Q: Recent time you were really upset?- Worst part of it? 2 days ago, when I found out something I was kept in dark from.

LAST
1. Person you saw:- An Auntie, in the MRT.
3. Movie you watched in cinema:- Twilight.
4. Song you listened to:- How Did I Fall In Love With You, BackStreet Boys.
5. Person you talked on the phone with:- Cant Remember.
6. Did you notice that the question 2 was gone:- Yes.

TODAY
1. What are you doing right now?- That's dumb, what you're reading now is what I'm doing.
2. What are you doing tonight?- =.= Slping.
3. What are you going to eat?- Food. Breakfast, lunch and dinner.

TOMORROW
1. Is- Another day, another test, a lot more pointless thinking and suffering.
2. Are you looking forward to it- No. Why would anyone look forward to suffering? Save me the trouble and jump rite off a cliff if I was looking for suffering.
3. Are you going to laugh?- I wish I could laugh because I finally got want I've been wanting, so laughing that excludes that, hopefully a little.
4. Is a normal day- The most typical boring day in the life of a 15yr old guy taking tests sitting next to a bunch of idiots in class who joke so lamely I could just die hearing their jokes, yes, such a normal day, I wish it was abnormal, so tat those lame idiots suddenly died or something.

Irritated through today.
No doubt I had my Amaths book in front of my face for such a long time today, supposedly supposed to be studying for Monday's test, I wasnt even thinking of Amaths, My mind was put off.
Maybe you've realised the music doesnt suit my blog. My blog's all black and stuff but my music's lively and active. Purposely done so, so that I can at least try to change my mood by hearing lively music, cause the music I would have put on my blog would be completely the opposite if I were to put what kind of crap I feel right now, but if I did that, I'd sink into depression..
Spent almost the whole day trying to preoccupy myself so that I wont think, but I could nt.. tried to slp, but was always half awake, always half thinking of the same thing I'm trying to stop thinking abt.. Working didnt help at all, just the book was there, mind was nt..
Changed blogskin, to preoccupy myself, didnt take long enough tho, after that it was back to Stage 1 all over again, think more, feel more, hurt more.
Deleted off my wish list, cause I knew it was not going to come through anymore.
I feel so... sigh.. forget it.. I wished I never made the first move at all..

.. I didnt know... why? ... If it really is like that.. I suppose I dont have a choice, I have to give in sooner or later....If nt.. Then I suppose she wants it like this, I will give her this, if I cant anything else.. There's no meaning anymore for me.... I feel... empty.... but since she wants it this way, I'll give in... I'll learn if I cant try, until I've ridden this feeling I have, for you..

unexpected, lol, I'm surprised. yet not so much. I wonder who it is. haha. it matters nt anymore, its nt going to change anything.

hecks. Next wk is gonna be pain i tell u. All the tests crammed into 4 days. Revising next week is gonna kill me off. Now still sian. Little bit of work only sian liao, dowan do. Maybe tonight then I do again.
No scores le wad song do I find next lidat!? I cant think of any scores le, nth much more that can be done le, Keep thinking for new scores then find.
Composed SecondHand Serenade's Fall for you on the piano just yesterday. But Brian doesnt like the song in the first place so asking him is no link. These few days damn blur and tired sia.. For Emaths test I got 19 u noe O.O. I got 4m careless cause nv write something, or sketch graph label correct things in the wrong place WTF?! hais. Common Test must score lor i suppose. Sianz. Kay Rui Failed the Emath paper. So wo bi shang bu zu, bi xia you yu. ^^. Which reminds me, I havent learnt the chinese su yu yet! This Sucks! Die alr lidat, cram my brain with wor until overload, ha! Lyk I could bother now, I'll do what my capacity can take, What much more can I study anyway? A and E Maths? Hardly study de, usually just see paper and do, then score so high, at most want to "study" I just practice a bit more can le. English Language? Study? How? Read strybk can le. Chem? Physics? From small until now I never study just use logic can go through le, and always a somemore i dno y, at most, like maths lidat lor, look see look see, can le. Its just the Geog, SS, Bio and HCL. These few arx. Like my ke xing lidat. Always low marks wan, I tink my Geog die alr. How the heck M i going to get high marks for geog for O levels? I'm gonna have to hammer myself with a sledgehammer to just pull myself to read the damned bk, so blooming boring.
SS, BORING. HCL, read bk? Hardly got any Chi bks tat interests me, tat's the prob, newspaper also read 1 page i REALLY CAN FALL ASLP wan leh, no joke.Bio, the teacher hardly goes through thoroughly, makes us go hme and read, but cram all the other subjects hmw, in the end nv read, T.T Tat wan really die le. ARH!! Nvm, bb

I'm not going o run, nt anymore, until this is over.


My Fingers pain like hell sia, everyday also play 30min gd enough le, my fingers will feel numb constantly. AndI'm down with flu. AhChoo! LoL! hais. nth better to do la, that's why type such nonsense on blog, might as well dun type, I go play again l ba, or maybe slp. Lol, bb.

Sry folks, hardly have time to update these days. If its nt supplementary, its tuition, if nt, its homework, if nt I'm busy doing other stuffs, E.g piano, guitar, more homework, revision, and the rest of the boring stuff, except the piano and guitar part.
Got PW to think abt as well. Huixun, Alston, Yan Qi, Kay Rui, and myself. 5 ppl. ITS NT COMPULSORY 5 PPL LA! 4 ppl can le! Biofuel as 1st choice, Solar as 2nd k? I really dowan go jungle leh!! In Sabah somemore T.T pls Yan Qi.
And Bio test has been postponed for a week, over and over again. SO DAMN IRRITATING. That Teacher of ours, really Irritating! I wish the test was one week ago. I'd rather have failed it than drag it on for a week -.- dno when to study what. So Bio test postponed to tmr, and there's Eng Compre test tmr (nt like I can study for that) (But nt like I've studied for Bio either, boring subject, study short while will damn slpy de) and then got Chess CCA - a very nice CCA because you can take attendance and then run downstairs to group work with friends, and then finish all the homework that is even going to be due on the next Monday in that 2 hrs which I should be using to play a dumb game on a map. I joined because its very slack. *grins*. The only thing is that it is also one of the memories I will never forget because something else had happened during Chess period as well. I got the first ___ from ___. its nt a kiss -.- dont think out of context -.- and everytime I think back now I can even remember how happy I was back then, but it had absolutely nothing to do with chess, nt even the chess members, no way in any context of chess club. I dno if I should have been happy now. Maybe it was a mistake to have started in the first place..
anyway, back to the point, I'm coming home at 10pm tmr -.- What kinda "F"ed up nonsense is that? such a waste of time.
Now for a complete change in topic. I've done so nicely for my SS test (Full marks), I've done almost perfect in all my science tests (All A s so far for every test, meaning 2 Chem tests and 2 Physics tests), and I've failed my geography. ^^ How nice can this get? I'll tell u how nice it can get. I'm still getting an A2 for combined Humanities because my SS marks pulled it sky high. ^^ MUAHAHAHA!-.- sucks. HOW DID I FAIL GEOGRAPHY. I COULD HAVE SUICIDED HAD I NOT GOT FULL MARKS FOR SS. I'd be MINCE MEAT if i hadnt, causeI'd be minced by the nagging I'm gonna get when I get home -.- I'll go deaf. How nice. -.-
And Friday got performance Class for Piano at 8pm T.T -.- I HATE THOSE DAMNED CLASSES. Who likes math? I like math? what's math? math = Performance class at 8pm = come back home at 10pm = cannot do anything on Friday = Very Wonderful. WHAT KIND OF BULLSHT IS THis
Anyway, I wont be posting everyday anymore, maybe every week or something.
JIAYI, HAVE YOU EATEN YET!!?!? (u noe what I mean -.-)

I'm trying to learn the guitar. BUT I CAN ONLY REMEMBER C,A,, F and G7. BUT ITS SO DAMN HARD TO PLAY F as a FULL chord.
Romance de armour I can play up till some part alr, and I've only learnt for 1 day. LOL!
Nothing to do today la! Actually got, but is Bio revision and I dowan to do it. damn irritating.

Wth, Brian, I tell u, I'm gonna regret listening to ur inspirational persuasion to get with B. At least now I know why you're in debate club. Able to convince the heck of me. BUT I KNOW I'm Gonna DIE, so I realy have no clue why I'm trying, I suppose the situation cant get any worst than this anyway, right? I'll give it all I've got.

Sian. My New Jacket looks nice!! ^^ I got it in Malaysia from Esprit as well, but the clothings they sell there are DIFFERENT, much nicer!! XD no matter. My mum has no clue my dad bought it for me or she'll freak, but I have no clue why she'll freak out. Its really quite nice. Maybe A woman's taste is different. Its nice.

sian, nothing to do but rack my brains and study these days, if nt is go out, if nt is go tuition, really boring. Either way, I'm on the com now. Muahahaha! And all my work due up to next week is alr done, cause I know if I leave it to weekend with all the work added up there's no way I'll be able to finish it, so when i get it I just do it in sch. Amaths lecture today explain until I see stars. Nt only dont understand. something else as well. but anyway I've managed to be ENLIGHTENED by the one and only Alston Ong Guan Jie. so I managed all questions 7 to 12 today, plus Emaths hmework in textbook 3 Questions. But Bio Homework the crazy cher ask us summarise the last two lessons with the two questions provided in the textbook -.- . SIAN. If dont do tmr will die, so done le. and I didnt summarise whole chapter, I just mainly answered the 2 questions and that was that. I still havent post the trip on yet, maybe after all the tests.

crap, Amaths test today.
I'm nt worried abt failing, but I think I wont be able to get an A1 now for that test, but the problem is my whole class probably is, and that's the crap lyin in wait for me regarding this issue. It sucked man. Q1 and Q6 I got problem doing -.-
Q1 because they made the question in such a way that you must substitute the y-factor in instead, but I only found out in the last 2 minutes, so when I was on the 3rd line the teacher told me to stop, I had subbed in the x-factor before that, so I just left my working there and cancelled off the y-factor one. Hais.. Q6 is because I think somewhere inside got calculation error, and I cannot find the last 2 x values. so I think I've lost at least 8m alr if I'm given 1m for the remaining workings which are nt exactly wrong. So the max I can get is probably a B3 for this test. hais..
Anyway, I got FULL MARKS FOR MY SS TEST!!! 15/15 only so it wasnt too much an achievement. A few ppl in my class also got it, but they're all pros so I dont know how much the outside world got. My class full of nerds. If I become one of them I promised Russell I'd go to his house and start banging my head on his wall until I change back to myself.
Gonna get back Physics test tmr, I dont think I did well for that one either, I guessed so much through it, and lost at least 3m i think, out of 20.
And today I wanted to eat in the canteen, but because our Bio teacher delayed us and our class was supposed to finish even later then the other classes alr anyway today, the store I wanted to buy food from shut down alr -.- and I had to rush back up for test. So, I went KFC to eat today thinking I could spend 6 bucks or so like when I go to McDonald's to eat, instead, I used 8 bucks, how lovely, I'm gonna go bankrupt if this keeps up. And Kay Rui today. Chase me for answers about what I had asked the Bio teacher. cause I asked her some stuffs personally abt Bio. And the bastard Chase me all the way down to the canteen where I realised the shop had shut, and then while I was on the way back up to class for the test I bang my shoulder on the damn railing so freaking hard I think I Amputated my own arm off myself. Stupid damn donkey that guy.
And tmr still got test. crap. Holy crap And I havent studied yet and am still enjoying my lovely cheap expensive KFC -.- Bloody Kentucky Fried Chicken. I wonder what they feed it until it costs so much. Melamine. I'm gonna die.