The hols are finally coming to an end. All the u touched homework and stuff still scattered all over my house-.- damn I'm dead.

Stayed awake for more than 24 hours again-.- haven't slept yet. Time to break record>:) 2.5 days. I think not possible alr, nth much to do to keep me awake.

Gonna bowl now with Ethel:) lunching first. Adious

Shucks.. I thought I was over this. Anyway, nothing can bother me when I'm listening to music:) Justin Bieber's voice is so nice, don't know why people dislike him. Mistletoe^^ haha! What other songs does he have that's nice?:) should go look up.

Haven't blogged in so long, but I'm free today and I've played games and did everything I can think of alr.. Kay Rui pangsehed me T.T so now so bored..

If only people could understand how each other felt, then the world would be a much easier place.. Or not. Since people like to conceal what they're feeling, and sometimes, you just can't not conceal it.. Because what people feel can sometimes be wrong I guess.. Right? If a person can't read me that well, then I guess we're not close enough to get anywhere..

Can't sleep cause I don't know what's wrong with me-.- no more games to play, bleach apparently isn't coming out today. Really boring day. Tmr staying over at aijing's place with Kay Rui, Xin Ni, ben Cheng and Aijing, I think if it happened that way to me I'd really feel discomforted, but then again, it can't be helped since I've never far enough. Hope the feeling goes away Tmr:) it will, I'll be far too busy:) and then after that I'll just forget about today's stuff alr:) over and out.

dammit tmr got Pw oral presentation, damn scared!! Lol, but i dont really think memorising is a good idea since everytime I memorise i stare at random things and start talking to it ._. Must Improvise. Hopefully wont screw up.

One piece wasnt that interesting, takes too long to progress, maybe I shall wait a couple of weeks before I watch again, then can watch a few at 1 go. Not that I have much choice, cause Monday Op, Tuesday get back overall results, thursday go taiwan alr. Now I just want this Op stuff to happen!! dammit. Tmr it ENDS PW!!! mUAHAHAHAHAHHAA

For how long more will I have to put up with all this?-.- can't believe it. I understand where she's coming from, and what her problem is, but this is really unreasonable.

Nothing seems to help. I just want to be alone in my room, and ignore everything else.

I am so bored right now, I dont know what to do-.-

Story of my life,
searching for some fun,
but it keeps avoiding me.

Sorrow in my soul,
cause I feel so bored,
really loves my company.

Is this what it is,
Is this what I think,
The reason that I'm typing this.

Clouds are rolling in,
Cause it's here again,
and me it just cant me true,

=.= Boredom drives people nuts. sigh... Nothing to do. I dont want to revise anything, even though I have a bio test on Monday that's testing almost about everything, and A chem spa on tuesday that makes up 7.5 % of my A levels for chemistry.
The Chem Spa's not a problem, can always revise on tuesday for a good 1.5 hours if necessary, but this bio test =.= So much to cover. Most of which I already have previously, but I need to recap. I've finished Photosynthesis and Respiration Content so far. But I've got Homeostasis, Nervous control, DNA replication Transcription, Translation, Cell Physiology to go. which is ALOT. and to make matters worst, you're usually supposed to go through several question AFTER revision of everything. How in Heaven's name am I going to finish this? =.= I have tmr afternoon and today to do it, but I dont feel like doing it today, so I guess I'll just have to spend the whole of tmr going through all that. Probably will take me 3 hours or maybe slightly longer, hopefully. bored. bored bored. bored bored bored.

The Spoilt Kid Next Door

A boy no more than 5 years of age.
He jerked his head up, seemingly unaware of all the people watching him,
Waving his hands in every direction.
Frustration written all over his face as he shouted at his mother, ordering her to follow him.
Then he took up his toy scooter, and went back to his fun.

All in his own world, oblivious to his surroundings,
A tear found its way down a cheek.
She stood there, not knowing what to say,
and walked on, in the footsteps of her child, leaving nothing but the wind behind her.

Shit I havent really been able to blog much at all lately. Night Study's up till 10 and by the time I reach home that's about it for me.

I dont know anymore.. I know it's worth it if it starts now. I'll wait and see how long it'll last. Going out with the one, but going out with someone who is closer than you are, I dont know how I should be feeling. SO many things. Best way is to not think and just feel, it's envy, how? I'll persevere, and if it works out, it'll be for the better, I hope.

Mugging my ass off to just catch up with Bio lectures. They are freaking chionging all the lectures! Killing me sia! Cannot catch up at all and dont understand a thing.

Just watched bleach, the movie sound quality this time got some issue, it's not my com speakers cause the previous movies play fine, so must be this movie, and all the other streaming sites all display the same sound quality, =.= dammit.

Yeterday morning PE, yesterday afternoon Basketball, Today after 2 hours of basketball, tmr afternoon PE, Friday morning basketball again. Monday, Wednesday, Friday must do weights at night. I think maybe I'm over doing this =.= but no matter how much I do I cant seem to see significant improvement, very much like in another section of my life..., but still, I guess I'll persevere as well =) I wanna be able to slam-dunk! That's the goal I'll try to achieve in the next year =) sports-wise. Academic I wanna get all A's, it's not impossible. I will get them! Friends already have =) more than enough, just need best friends, the rest, just acquaintances, not necessary. Guess I do have good friends in JC as well =) moving on with life after all, 8 months later, oh well. Secondary School friends get more priority ^^ that's how I feel.
Byeee

Looking up, seeing the whole sky crumbling into pieces, whole world falling apart. Hopefully that day will never come.

I found a dead beetle in my bag. IN MY BAG. HOW THE F*** DID IT GET IN THERE?=.= at least I know why it couldnt get out. Stupid beetle, not my fault, lalalalala..

Ethel's leaving tmr, and today I can see something very foreboding coming up real soon. But today I can also see that maybe it's not going to be that bad after all. I just want to be myself around people, but for this particular case, I cant be me unless I really feel like I couldnt care less anymore. I just want to be normal around, but I cant crack the jokes, I cant do anything that I do everyday, stupid, I'll just be myself, and that'll probably be the end of this altogether if it's just not meant to be...

Where is my 32 Gigabyte Thumbdrive? Where is it? WHERE IS IT?!

Just told Kay Rui to imagine a live-sized barney sitting in a wooden chair staring at him with the most scary eyes while he's asleep (maybe while sewing something with a needle). If that'd happen to me I'll die of heart attack.

Why some very "nice" shows no sound wan ah? Why ah? WHY AH?

Was so depressed just now, then msg came, made me feel happier =) haha.

What is the nicest subject in the world?! PW!!! Say again? What's the nicest subject in the world!? PW!!! ???? Whyyy PW?? WHyyyyyy PW!??!?!?!

Saturday going out whole day. Sunday going out again. How to do Pw?? =(
Why didnt you do PW Justin??
Dog ate my com.
Really?
Yes!!
*shows him my dog*
Dude what happened to your dog?
Told you he ate my com.
(soft toy dog in shape of com)

I need a break
rest
stop
gap
time interval
very very long time interval
before I start mugging again.

*bang*
WT* WAS THAT!?
*BANG BANG*
WT* WAS THAT!!?!
.. I'M BARNEY.. WhoooooooooO~~!!OO!
HEEELELP!ELEPLEP!!

Something's not right with me today right? I know. I'm going to sleep. byebye.

I guess it's finally time to let go.


Last Friday I played Basketball at 630am to 730am and then to 8am. Crazy training, next day was the most painstaking day. Back pain, Thigh pain, Calf pain, cant believe it.
Today, finally recovering alr! Then got PE in the evening. Make us run 6 rounds and then run up and down the grandstand 20 times. Now Thighs pain againm calves pain again. pfft.
Feels good being around certain people, even though you know you dont really want to go anywhere with them, when the line is not drawn clear and you can just let go of anything anytime. =) very relaxing, makes it so comfortable to be around them. Perhaps I've been going about stuff the wrong way after all. Secondary School may have been a small mistake though. But the majority of secondary school has been in the right direction. Haha!

Random Rule number 1: Never eat Bangawan Solo cakes in the morning cause I get extremely powerful stomachaches.
Random Rule number 2: Never do PW till 12 everyday and get up at 5, you'll kill yourself. If you look at me now you'd see a walking zombie =.=

So bored.. Dont feel like playing games, cant do exercise cause everywhere pain, tmr got Basketball in the morning again, then tennis in the afternoon =) All with friends! This is the life^^! Dunno how I'm gonna play with all this pain though.

Just ate a hole bag of Chicken Biscuits. I'm gonna get a sore throat. Water!!

Omg when was the last time I blogged?!
I lost 4 put of my 7 tutorials for chemistry and my Pw has to be changed last minute and it's due in two weeks and looked at all the ****ing rubbish I'm writing, it's all ****ing related to work. Makes my blood boil thinking about the stupid society we live in.

I'm going to go out this weekend. I'm going to go out next weekend. I'm going to go out every weekend and play until I drop dead. For now. I guess I don't have a choice with the work part.

Spent the past dew days doing all the tutorials I've done since march for chemistry, and at the same time finishing all my homework for each day so I'm still on track. Stayed back in school till 730 almost everyday, without playing at all. That's the shit we go through. Anyway, from Tmr onwards for the next two weeks, it's gonna be much more fun:) Ethel's coming back! :D

Something's not right.

I wonder when they're gonna announce how the guy's doing it. You know there's this guy sitting on a ministage outside Tampines mall sitting on what he claims to be an invisible chair" sia! And people walking by are just taking pictures of him! And he's just sitting there smiling for shots! They say whoever can draw the chair wins a 1000 dollars or something like that. Lol. I just wanna know how he's doing it.

Anyway, long day. Played tennis with Mian Yu, ran into Shija and his friend, then ran into Jordan when Jordan was walking home, so I went to his house and spilt my bubble tea all over his floor! xD Hahahahaha!! Sorryyyyy :(!

Monday is .... (say it with me) .. YOUTH DAY!!! It's good to be Young! ^^ Because you get extra holidays^^!! haha!! Dont have to go schoooolllll.

You got that smile
That only heaven can make
I'll pray to God every day
That you keep that smile

Yeah, you are my dream
There's not a thing I won't do
I'll give my life up for you
'Cause you are my dream

And, baby, everything that I have is yours
You will never go cold or hungry
I'll be there when you're insecure
Let you know that you're always lovely, girl
'Cause you are the only thing that I got right now

One day when the sky is falling
I'll be standing right next to you
Right next to you

Nothing will ever come between us
Cause I'll be standing right next to you
Right next to you...



Music's like a world. A whole new world:) life without it would be so sad.

Why fight when you can be friends? Why cry when you can be happy? Life's too short for meaningless worries and quarrels... Cherish everything, love everyone, live life with no regrets, so that at the end of the road you can look back and say everything was to it's best! Then look forward and march into His presence. Enjoy everything, and never feel sad again:)

Rule number one: NEVER revise for other exams on the next day before the exam on this day is over, even if you have completed revision for this exam ^^! Cause I dont want to study, heh heh heh! Nah, kidding lah, seriously cant revise now anyway cause if I study for tmr's subject I'll have the information all jumbled up in my head and then when I do the test later I'll just end up being more confused and flustered than usual. Guess it's some kinda mental thingy where I'm not used to having overload of rubbish info in my head =.=

Almost done if not already done for this coming econs test at 1-3pm. So now I have nothing to do. I'll start revising agai at 1130 one last quick time, and then that'll be it =) go for the test. Feeling slightly more confident this time cause I've studied for this so long, so I should at least get a C =) if not a B. Hopefully I do get it, cause the only thing I previously gotten for Econs a dumb shit sub-pass, which is as good as a fail. =.= Dunno why they call it sub-pass when it's simply a fail.

My hp battery is like at 19% also :( which means I cant play handphone games to kill time (Which I dont normally play anyway), so that's why I'm blogging now!:D So bored.

Got a Random sms from jordan this morning when I woke up saying that he's got a GP test today and that he needs my squid power! :D See I knew it! Some people need my powers!^^ Such a useful and happy squid. Who could ask for more? RIGHT!?!?!?

Reena wanted to look up my econs notes but she hasnt responded to me yet, which means she probably wont be coming to look it up. So now, I'm completely qand utterly free for the next hour and a half before I resume work! I shall go play piano or go toilet or go eat or go sleep or go do something other than work! Sai-yo-na-ra.

Pfft nearly forgot to apply for deferment for NS, phew, just did it ^^ gonna go sleep. tmr got midyears. I just plucked my pprinter swwitch into the power point and got shocked. Lol. wth sia. I plugged it in and it went zzzzz, so I took it out and placed th metal tip onto the wooden structure nearby to ground anything cause I was quite sure for once I'd get shocked. Then I touched the tip after that to ensure that there was nothing wrong and I got shocked! it went Pzz! and I saw an orange spark wtf!?

Studied from 730 to 1030, then from 1205 to 335, all on bio =.= and I havent even finished half yet, and this is my best subject. Doom and gloom now. Finished transcription and translation notes, but I dont have good hold on it, must practice abit more. Looks like Saturday and Sunday wont be too good anymore ust for maths.

Apart from which, I've still been busy playing. Damned discipline issues these days, maybe I should not have downloaded those games, pure distraction. hopefully there will not be anymore cellular functions topics, hate all those, bloody boring. All the cycles stuff is easier, and even after that, all the meiosis and mitosis stuff still is kinda irritating to remember.

Now I have to go in search of something again. Spent about a S$100 in Hong Kong, now must make up for it, looks like next 2 weeks to a month is going to be a very hard time, but, I'll find some way to get by and save up, cant be empty handed in Dec, and cant be empty handed anytime actually, still got lots to do.

Econs tmr, Chemistry is like a total and complete failure so far, dont know how on Earth I'm going to complete it. Looks like next week's gonna be a very rough week. Got to mug through everything ahead again, usually I start 3 weeks ahead of a test =.= Now I'm down to three days. got to make full use of it..

Have Loads and Loads and Loads of Pictures of Hong Kong, like 200. Must be the camera's addiction. No matter, I lazy put up 200 pics and I doubt anybody will have the mental capacity to look through 200 pics, and to add to that the fact that nobody actually reads this blog, it makes me even more lazy, still, posting is fun.

This just did not go according to plan at all =.= mostly all the things that were good and should have been there to help were not there, and to make it a bit worst, some things that were not supposed to be there were.

Sigh. I have Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday to cover Chem, Bio Econs, and Maths, in total. Bio is probably manageable cause I'm so familiar with it, but Econs, Chem, Maths all die. Never been good at humanities subjects so Econs is understandable, but what happened to Maths and Chem!? omg now I really have no idea how to go about this. it's impossible to study econs, chem, or maths all in one day. But. I dont have much choice. I'll throw maths over the 2 days on the weekend, and I'll throw Chem on the first day, bio on the second day (so I can take a slight breather), and then Econs on Fri. Still. OMG I dont know how to finish this up! I need Chemistry tuition =.= Lol and maths and econs =.= practically everything but bio, but of course there's no way I can get them, so maybe I'll try get Chemistry tuition only? No way in hell would I have imagined myself wanting tuition a year ago. Wtf is wrong with this studying spree everybody's going on about? There's several people in my class just studying and doing nothing else, utter madness, and here I am, not doing much, and look where that's got me =.=
I suppose there goes my life. I can wave byebye to it now for the next 1.5 years. Hate it. Singapore's nuts making us study like this. Cant stand it much longer but it's only been half a year.

Oh My Gosh I'm never ever buying an MP3 set again. I keep buying those that are supposedly high-quality music but it's not high quality when it enter my ears so either my ears are spoilt or the damn earphones are not high-quality. I think it's the latter ^^

In Hong Kong now and as you can guess, I've bought a new set of earphones. Which I'm not satisfied with =.= I'm really wasting my money on all this. I seriously regret ever buying earphone sets!

No matter. Anyway, I cant find any souvenirs or stuff like that here!! No clue what to buy. And what's more, this whole place looks completely different. It's like, some sci-fi place where modern and non-modern seem to be in the same place in a very clear cut line. If you look up, you'll see all the residential areas -- they are all extremely old, even older than anything you can find in Chinatown in Singapore. But on the ground level and perhaps second levels of what you can see of buildings, they're all very very modern and new! It's exactly the inside of a shopping mall where there are single shops on either side of the street (which is not very wide). It's completely weird, it's like you're inside a shopping mall with towering residential areas above you that are very very old, or at least it is like this here in Causeway Bay in Hong Kong.

Gonna go soon, kinda bored, should have brought the com, but that would defeat the purpose of coming here. See ya!

Okay! I've CS, I've got warcraft, I've got total annihilation, although I couldnt get COD or left4deadd2 :( I didnt trust the links. Even got Age of Empires and Real War Rogue States! Haha! can play my life away away alr. BUT WHAT ABOUT WORK!? =.=

...

You know what folks?
Of course you dont.
Well, know this:

BOREDOM KILLS.

See me? I'm practically dead already ^^ =.= OMG!NWDHFDD@W&EY#&YTHBFCJDQIJEIJ HU#GVBHCJNQIJ
I'VE NEVER FELT MORE BORED.
WASTING MY LIFE AWAY.
I've even watched GI Joe on Funshion.
WhAT ElSE IS THERE TO DO!? PRACTICALLY NOTHING.
I'm using the word "Practically" alot.
You SEE! I'm so bored, I even realise what words I'm using!
More often than not, you'd thought I'd realise that when I'm not bored.
AGHRG!!! DAMMIT! No bleach, no naruto, no vampire diaries, no Counterstrike (yet), no Warcraft (yet), no COD (yet too), PRACTICALLY NOTHING!! Wait! I know what you're thinking, "He's used the word 'Practically' again"! BUT there's no other word TO USE. It can be used for almost anything actually, practically dying, practically sleeping, practically not doing anything, in fact, it's so practical, I dont even know what I'm talking about anymore.

=.= Wonderful. Absolutely nothing to do, I think I know how my Hamster feels like.
I could go feed my goldfish :D Except they'd be overfed :D and die of overfeeding :D

DAMMIT! Second time I've used the word dammit too =.= Someone help me. I'm melting~. ... =.= No I'm not.

T.T I literally dont know what I'm saying anymore.

Do you know you could literally replace the word "Practically" with Literally?^^ haha! This is how bored I am, go figure. One day when you're sitting in your room in front of your com and have done almost everything and anything a person can actually do with a rectangular box that gives out light, you'll be in my state. It's called the Nonsense state. I dont even know why I'm blogging, to kill time perhaps? sian..

Can you believe I actually read my own blog post and laughed? =.= Something's not right with me today, I'm going on a vacation. Bye.

I feel so mentally tired because there's nothing much else to look forward to this June Holidays.. Everybody all busy studying.. Why cant people study then come out for a bit of fun sia? .. I think the word is not, is lonely. Haha.. Feels rather depressing.. Going back to school everyday just to study... Meeting up during the last week of July, that's like 2 months from now. At least put something at the end of the month.. but cant.. sigh.. Dont know what to do.. Wasting my life away rotting.

okay, long way to type. Here goes.

Went to KLP last night with Jordan Chuw Teck Kay Rui and Ben Cheng, watched X-men First Class. Show quite nice! And the there was this guy that suddenly started laughing halfway through the show in the cinemas when it was not funny, end up all of us start laughing also=.=

Show ended quite late, about 11pm. So we stayed and played arcade for awhile till about 1140 or so, basketball and that weird game where you're supposed to knock the round thing into the hole thing =.= cannot explain games.

ANYWAY. After that we left for Jordan's place, and !!!! JORDAN'S PS3 DONT WANT TO START UP FOR US TO PLAY CALL OF DUTY 3!! :( so end up cannot. Then I keep trying to on it, and everytime u press the on button, it makes this very high pitched beep noise and then turns off by itself and beeps again. It was such a wonderful thing to do, so I kept trying to make it work, like 15-20 times, and then I woe up Jordan's mother and incurred her wrath.

No joke. hahaha! Almost died. Anyway, then she asked us go sleep, but Jordan and we all all didnt want to, so we on-ed the TV and started watching shows, Ben Cheng and Jordan went to play Maple. After about 15 minutes, Ben Cheng retired for abit, and I used com to watch Full Metal Alchemist Brotherhood. okay, awhile is an understatement, I used it for like 2 hours watching and Ben Cheng was watching with me. Jordan was multi-tasking, playing maple and watching at the same time.

Meanwhile, outside the room, in a dark dark place, Chuw Teck and Kay Rui had fallen asleep without us knowing, that is, until I finished watching the entire Fullmetal alchemist to the very last episode. I tried to wake them up but they both shrugged me off! T.T what kinda people treat me so bad. hehehe. But then again I was waking them up at like 4am in the morning, hehehe!!

End up, I went to bed and let Cheng use com, and just when I almost fell asleep, Baldy wakes up, and next thing I know, I see his 2 feet right in front of the place I'm sleeping at and he's making a lot of noise!! So I ended up complaining about some stuff for fun for a long long time and made them laugh like heck, then went back to sleep.

Sleep till 9 plus=.= wake up, KAY RUI'S GONE!! =.=

So okay, nvm, I thought I'd play my nice game again and wake jordan up by switching on the lights and then pulling off the covers from his bed, like I always do, ^^! But just when I was going to switch on the lights, Jordan jumped up from his bed and said "JUSTIN!!!!" =.= Firghtened the Sh*t out of me =.=

Slept for only 3 hours I think.

Then went back home, took bus 12, felts kinda nostelgic.. got drenched in the rain like anything, so heavy. Showered, changed, left the house with my jacket with the hoodie as a multipurpose umbrella and got drenched in the rain again. Went up to Bugis to meet with Xinni, Aijing, Jordan, Chuw Teck, Ben Cheng, Kay Rui, watched Kung Fu Panda 2, forgot to tell Xinni we were watching that, ended up making her watch it again >:) haha! sorry =( Then finish alr sian a bit, walk around, Chuw Teck bought a pair of headphone sets for himself at Iluma, then people all went home while Xinni, Aijing, Ben Cheng and I went to eat dinner. Well, technically speaking, I was eating dinner, they were watching me eat. Dessert stall not there anymore, Xinni no dessert to eat! Aijing went toilet for long long time! (hope she sees this^^) hahaha! Ben Cheng said something flew into my food while I went to buy drinks I was like ._.

Anyway, now home alr, want to sleep soon, kinda tired, was supposed to not sleep at all actually, ended up sleeping =.= tch. see ya!

using school com now. Stressed=.= just did like 2 hours 15 minutes of work. Revised 3/4 of all the bio stuff we've learnt so far. Only DNA chapters havent covered. Gonna watch fullmetal, then go back to work!

Cai Ling smsed me =.= saying "Justin, there is bio mock exam tmr?!?!?!?!" =.=!??! Scared the living shit out of me. It's ON THURSDAY!

Tired. sleepy like anything.

Chill, k? everybody has family issues i guess, some are ordinary, some arent, mine is more on the extreme end too i guess, so you should try to enjoy it, even though it's not something enjoyable, easier said than done. Still, it's definitely something you want to do, otherwise.. I think I'll regret it.. for my case anyway.

I'm gonna have to do something about this tiredness=.= tiredness. I dont think there's such a word. yet. haha!! Cause I've made it now.

Was supposed to go to Jordan's house and sleepover =.= but Mr Kay Rui last moment say his Grandma feel lonely dont want him to go=.= and Chuw teck cant also. Then I go jordan's house overnight do what sia?! Cherie will have my head!!

I am going to get my handsome rest. hahahaha!!! self-praise. Seems so common these days =.= so is enthusiasm, except I dont like enthusiasm that much =.=

Gotta go, going to get scolded again, as usual, not that I'm not accustomed to it already=.= but that's the least of my worries anyway, that's normal =.= now, when something ABnormal starts again, which will at least occur twice in the next 24 hours, then perhaps I'll do something to keep calm =.= if I'm not already accustomed to it too, as surprising as it can be to be accustomed to this one.

Night y'alls! go watch full metal alchemist =) not bad!

Since when did www.blogspot.com cease to exist?=.=

Anyway, sleep over at jordan's house tmr!!! whoohoo! Gonna rape him. hehehe! jkjk.

Bloody hell. I really hate the naruto anime film makers. Every single episode also flashback here flashback there, and every single fighting scene also shifting from one person's view to another. If they dont want to make it a quality show they shoulld just stop showing it. disappointing show today.

No matter. Tmr's sports carnival too, and I'm plaaying basketball. lol. die already sure got some very pro dude thrash everyone one.

Spent 2-3 hours today using school com to watch fullmetal alchemist brotherhood >:) hehe. Library com somemore and I'm vice=.= I'm gonnna get sacked soon.

Dont know what to do now. Was looking forward to watching Naruto only today. Now watch already feel damn down. wasting my time and wasting their time making it. I'm gonna watch fullmetal alchemist. bye.

Chem test on Monday
Econs test n Tuesday
GPP Hand in by Wednesday
GP Mid-yrs on Thursday
Friday half day
Next week got all the stupid mock tests.
Do they realise holiday''s round the corner?!? Then they give us tests during the last week, Make us come back during the first week for more tests, and then make us do our mid-yrs on the first week holidays end?! Idiots. People have to relax once in a while. I'll relax after A's all the way till army comes and kills me =.=

Naruto Manga read, Anime watched, bleach anime too, now nothing to do but work again=.= Did work just now, until I got so tired I decided to go take a nap. Now that I'm back up, I should be doing work, no?
Bloody ridiculous blinding speed Singaporeans are working us at, all the way to the bone. Thinking how bad jobs are going to drain every last once of blood and squeeze me dry.. =.= here goes Econs again.

It just came to me, and I wrote a song in like 10 minutes!! Although, it's kinda short, but the major components are there. Perhaps I'll try it out in the chapel tmr.
Post blog 01.

Swiftly and Silently,
Breezing through the wind.
His Eyes know not anger,
His Heart knows not grief.

His Word was his Treasure,
that he never once gave.
His Hands were his tools,
that he used for sin.

What the people saw not in this man,
was what he desired to become.
What a Person felt not for this man,
was what he desired for an eternity.

I dont know if I should be happy or sad today. Screw it.. I should be happy, that's definite. I think I see the end of the tunnel. But I hope I wont reach it so soon. It's been awhile since I saw it.. I just refused to acknowledge that I had seen it.

Anyway, someone caught me by surprise today. It's been awhile since someone of the same caliber managed to get to me. Hmmm. I see a welcome party for a new friend may be in store? hahaha!

I was supposed to catch up with biology today. And for once I actually sidetracked and went off to doing something else. I'm losing it. Pfft, trying to be a mugger that I'm not =.= and you've got muggers trying to have fun, which they're also failing to accomplish of course. Still, no choice, Jc's made my life something like nothing before =.= a mugging hell.

The Darkness fades,
The Moon tries to hide.
A gentle breeze caresses the leaves above,
scattering them to the ground.
As the sun rises over the horizon,
the dawn of a new era begins.

It's an identity crisis. Hehehe. That's the last thing that I expected to ever hear-.- Pfft! Hahaha!

I wonder how people feel about people who close doors on them? Disappointed, frustrated, sad, irritated-.- probably pissed off. Hmm if it were me, I find a door stopper:D and cook maggi noodles while waiting for someone to open it from the inside. So, I'm just sitting outside, knocking every once in a while, wondering when it will finally open and let me into a whole new world. No flying carpets, no magic lamps, just walk in, and be a part of it.

I spy with my little eye, something... Red :D and orange, and yellow and green and blue and indigo and violet. What am I?
Rainbow-.-

I spy with my little eye, something pink!:D but it's not supposed to be pink, it's supposed to white-.- what happened to it?

I spy with my little eye, something round>:) guess guess?

A glance at his face gave nothing away.
He was calm, smiling, happy, cracking jokes.
His eyes were his loyal subjects, never betraying him.
His actions were as they always were.

But somewhere inside something had changed.
His soul felt pain as did his heart.
His actions meant nothing any longer.

Something from within had been stolen in the dead of the night.
No trace of it remained.
He didnt care who he would anger, which friends he made or broke,
because all he ever thought of never resided here.

So curse at him, swear at him, mock him,
for it means nothing to him.
Life is a straight road for him.
One that lasts too long.
But he no longer cares.

Why does he live?
For Himself?
For his Parents?
For his Friends?

From the darkness came a long sigh.
Sitting in the far corner lay someone who refused to give up.
He sits there, and waits,
hoping one day what he searches for comes to him willingly.

=.= I dont know how to get rid of someone like that! I'm gonna be stuck for a year like this. And then I've got people who keep telling me their problems and just want me to listen. I'm sincerely fine with listening one or tow or even three times, but like once every 2 days or once every day? That's just very frustrating. I'm really feeling kinda guilty feeling this way, but I've really got ot say, I hate doing this. First emotion that comes is irritation. Then I tell myself "Cmon, this is what friends are for, listen to each other's troubles and make them feel better because you ranting is one of the most perfect way of distressing, stop being an idiot of a friend", and then the irritation goes away and I'll start listening normally. But imgaine I have to do that three to four times a week if not more.. Man, I feel like I'm a hypocrite somehow already cause I keep saying "yup. yup, mmhmm. relax. Breathe in Breathe out, find a logical way to solve your problems, etc etc" just to realise that the person doesnt really want to solve their problems for themselves, and tell me "I know this is what I have to do, but I really dont feel like doing it because ..." and there is really no other way to solve the problem in this case. And then the next day or 2 days later they come back to me and start ranting about the same thing all over again. What exactly is the point in helping a person that has forsaken themselves? I would help the person if I sincerely loved them. But hello, I dont love this person, just friends, and its really driving me up the wall. Should I be frank? Or should I continue being a hypocrite =.= I think the answer's quite obvious, but if I say that the person will feel damn hurt and I dont know what on earth the person's going to do after that cause the person thinks I'm a really good friend. ****! I'm a damn conscience-struck hypocrite. What the heck do I do now? I shall continue listening and giving useful advise until the day comes when the person will finally wake up and smell the roses by herself.

Over with the really emo stuff.

I received a call from a person who's been constantly pestering me (Not the same person as above) and Ong Sim was with me. I was like "SHIT!! LOOK!!!~!! HELP!!!) and then Ong Sim snatched my phone from me. My facial expression --> O.O WHY DID U SNATCH MY PHONE, and then she answered the call herself!! O.O! and then she was like:
"Yes, Hello?
"Huh?
"No I dont know a 'Justin'.
"Maybe you've got the wrong number.
Yeah, okay, no problem.
Bye!"

AND I WAS LIKE WTH DID YOU JUST DO!?!?!
THIS IS THE KINDA THING I DID IN LIKE PRIMARY SCHOOL WITH OTHER PEOPLE'S PHONE! AND WHOSEVER PHONE IT WAS, THE GUY NEVER GETS AWAY WITH IT ANYWAY! I was like tellimg myself I was gonna be doomed. but surprisingly, no second call came back from the person. HAHAHA! FREEEE~~!!

Wishlist:
1) Get A for PW
2) Go out every 2 Saturdays or so with friends.
3) Take a picture with a sheep in Nz. (with ethel too of course)
4) Be able to watch Vampire Diaries, cause its loading extremely slowlt this very second=.=.

Byebye.

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then their done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud, those words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent
Just from me and now know I'm meant
To be where I am and I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then their done
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud, those words
They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close..

Having been blogging for quite long spans of time inbetween each post. Sorry to anyone reading, though I doubt there's really more than 1 or 2 doing so..

Been having a hard time lately. It's the only thing I see anywhere. Cant go to klp cause its there, going to macdonalds at white sands feels very empty. When I have spare time the first thing I think of doing I cant. Even the places where I got the things, Bugis, United square, Chinatown, all feels that there's really something not there. There's really no point revisiting school anymore. I cant pass by Tanah Merah mrt station without feeling down. Everything doesnt seem the way it is anymore here. .. Something's gone.. I dont like stepping near the nearest school anymore cause something feels weird going there even though I'm unrelated to it. I dont know what to say when I hear some songs anymore. I cant listen to Jay Chou's songs. Downtown East brings back a lot, chalet brings back a lot, I dont feel like going to either or seeing them even.. I have afew pictures under my desk cause I've never kept them away since I was busy making the book.. I'm messed up. I'm not bonded to any class I've been in, I'm certainly not bonded to my current one, and the one bond is gone. Sure there're many other bonds, and I treasure them.

I dont know what to type. I'm going to sleep. Goodnight. Havent said that to in a while, have not gotten a respond in that while. The response feels so comforting somehow. haha. now its not so easy to come by anymore, still =) it's there, and that's what matters, I think?

Sometimes you just have to bear with people.
Praise them a little here and there even though you think otherwise.
And perhaps one day they'll get better,
and perhaps they will come to understand,
that what you have done was to give them a push
by being a friend.

Still, =.= obviously doesnt apply to everyone, espcially when you cant stand being around them.
Certain people are just.. err.. wads the word.. overly-unique? hahaha. Phrasing things nicely^^ Cause being nice is good.

I find that nowadays I've been playing along with people,
laughing when it's not funny,
accomodating others,
all subconciously.
That's not how life should be.
It's hypocritical.
A fake world that people have created in order to fit in.
Sick of it,
society.
That's not my society.
I'm gonna be myself.
Then it's going to be nice to see =)
the people who will stand next to me
in a true world, where we can believe each other.

Going out later. Just finished a bit of bio. Naruto movie 4 is stupid, highly UNrecommended. haha! Ja na ;)

Whew =) topped class in Biology^^! haha! Hard work finally paid off. Although :( It's not a very good score for being top in class :( 19 out of 30 or was it 35? cant remember. It's mad though, this continuous pace of work, like raining from the sky actually. Cant even catch my breath very long. Leave it hanging for awhile and it snowballs like crazy =.=

Stayed up till 1 last night doing PW again. Spent like 7-8 hours on it in total for the second draft, and 3-5 hours on the first. The first was like crap though. Let's see how the teacher grades the second one. Did it to perfection in my eyes ^^, well.. not exactly, since I expect some errors somewhere =)

Damn it. Reached level 51 in Vampires Live. Sucks! =.= Ironic word to use. This new transformation came out which is freaking overpowering. I dont think anybody has the ability to defend against it. It's like 17 attack points higher than its defence, and considering I have 9 people in my clique, its like my defence is 17x9 times lower than it should be to defend myself. Almost given up on Imobsters already =.= Made too many mistakes, should never have made such a big mob, moreover so many people are playing that game, doesnt give me sufficient time to become the best =.=

Just read Naruto Manga, but it came out like 4-5 days ago. This is the kind of time I have left for enjoyment. For real. I dont even have time to sleep. What the heck's up with this kind of speeding fast life? Give me a damned well-deserved break!

My com died on me too! Just refused to allow me to use the internet. THEN I FOUND OUT MY OWN FIREWALL WAS BLOCKING ME OFF FROM MY INTERNET. Wad the heck=.= Now its back on.

By the way. Last night was memorable. >:) wanna know what happened? ........ Thinking sick arent we =.= idiots, I'm under-aged=.= Forget it=.= pfft. very long to type anyway.

Going to Penang over the Good Friday weekend. Will be back on Monday, die die also will be back on Tuesday, cause need to see Ethel off. hehe! Swim across the Straits cause Jetstar wont allow me to book a flight. So I went to look for Jetmoon. =.= lame.

I'm so bored. I could kill time by banging my own head on the wall behind me. Wad n earth do I do with no one to sms, no bleach, no naruto, no computer games, no homework?!

Piano^^ hehehe! Adieus!(?) (Means byebye) (in French? or was it spanish? eh? Or was it Italian? Damn it, whatever la, kk? Gotta go collect suffs tmr again anyway, hopefully can get it to look good^^) BYEBYE!

Mark This Day. 9th of April 2011.

I've been inspired, utterly inspired to learn guitar. hahaha! I'll try my luck I spose =) at least improve a bit every few days. Hopefully I'll be able to pluck =)

Bored like heck now. No bleach. No naruto. By right I should be sleeping for tmr. By left =.=

Lool. Okok. I'll tell ya something I discovered today!

I was making notes for Chemistry, and then I came across something that prompted me to find the definition of the word Titrate. So I typed it into the Google toolbar on the top left hand side of my handphone, and set it aside while waiting for the damn thing to load. 10 seconds Later I picked it up and read the web deifinition on the spot, and it turns out I've typed in "define Ritesh". I was like !?!?!? And his name has a meaning! I didnt know leh! It's god of something, I forgot. then I went back and typed in "define titrate" again, and my phone autocorrected Titrate to Ritesh. I was like !?!?!? Anyway. That was that.

Tough day. Out of the whole to weeks of school timetable, today ends the latest, not considering Cca. Ended at like 5. Normally I'd stay back in school to study till 630 cause I lazy go home early, and anyway cant study at home. So I force myself to study by staying in school, not exactly forcing, since there's really nothing to do so studying is really quite natural in a way. but couldnt do much today because lesson ended so late.

All the Primary Structure Secondary Structure Tertiary Structure Quaternary Structure Haemoglobin Structure Collagen Structure ALL KILLING ME INSIDE OUT=.= So many structure. Ur head got fracture ah? =.= Which Bangla go and make so many structure wan =.= At least Tyrosine Kinase and Gprotein still can understand. Problem comes in when you link them to the cellular function and complicate matters. Now better still, got Photophosphorylation, Cyclic and Non-Cyclic, Glycolysis, Link Reaction, Krebs Cycle, Oxidative phosphorylation and Electron Transport chain, Hyperglycaemic condition and Hypoglycaemic condition in detail, Neurone Resting Potential, Threshold level, Depolarization, Repolarisation, Hyperpolaisation, Refractory Period, AND WORST OF ALL IS EVERYTHING ABOUT THE STRUCTURE AND FUNCTION OF CELLS. That's the only thing I cant remember after I study it cause I forget in 2-3 days=.= Headache like anything.

Not to mention Bionomial for negative powers and fractions, Recurrence Relations, Sigma, Mathematical Induction, and Vectors for Maths, All the stupid laws for Economics just to make it sound cheem when actually it makes perfectly common sense for how things should work, and the most boring syllabus in the history on mankind for chemistry. Can barely keep awake if I pay attention to lectures and tutorials.

Overall I think Biology is still the most fun lor, but it's the most complicated and fast paced. Chemistry is already running miles and miles away from me. Econs dont study also can get 10/10 for FA =.= Gp, well, that fluctuates like anything, one moment B-, next moment fail. Whatever. Off to watch Naruto!

Erased and gone.

I'm gonna watch Naruto^^ Bye!

Just got back from Penang. Long day. Stayed up till 330 last night doing PW. Managed to finish it though.

Haven even shower yet. Sleepy like anything. adieus.

Blogging again. Back on my blogging spree cause my com's back into functioning.

Going back to Penang for Qing Ming Jie. Apart from which, gonna buy a couple of cheap shirts again =) and maybe a pair of jeans or something. Problem is, I have PW due on monday, so I'll have to bring this com along there and research there, and get the report ready, cause I have to print it when I get back on Sunday night. Kinda problematic. Probably will stay up overnight to research in Penang. Dont have Msn on this com yet. Maybe that's a good thing. Nowadays hardly use it anyway, and that thing's full of viruses.

Dunno wad else to type. Naruto will be coming out sometime tonight! Gonna watch =)!

I'm using my new com to type this!!!! Can You BELIEVE IT!?!?! ARE YOU JEALOUS?!?! OF COURSE YOU ARE! I KNOW IT! hehehe. okok. enough of that. even though it can never be enough.

Now, I've got thousands of issues at hand all ongoing at the same time, I feel like smacking myself in the head with a damn brick. Maybe I should just go ram into some wall head first=.= So much! And the worst part of this living nightmare is it doesnt end when you wake up!! D:!! Just when you start feeling accomplished that you've managed to finish the homework for the day, another load replaces the exact amount yoou've finished the day before! It's practically unbelievable. Santa Claus gave me too many early presents this year. Piles and piles and mountains and mountains and Nations-sized homework!!!! I can continue rambling on for the whole day, instead, I'll just tell u what I've got.
I have Chem Ca tmr, Maths Sigma homework, Econs supply and demand revision (if you like to call it revision because I actually didnt understand a thing in the lecture, and so I'm actually trying to understand it cause if I dont I'll be completely and utterly, and most importantly, Happily lost in a world of simple yet complicated econs. it's actually so easy to understand, but instead, they've created Laws for Demand, and Laws for Supply, and blasted the whole thing into another dimension of complicatedness yet to be discovered by Man. (By which I mean me). Okay. I'm a whole topic behind in bio, even though I've been studying like I've never did before to catch up. I've PW PI due this coming monday, when i cant even Identify which case study I'm going to pick for the damn thing yet. Furthermore I think the worst part is having to come up with a project on Risk or Conflict. Perhaps I should go into the supermarket and smash down afew shelves of groceries. Then I would have taken 1 Risk and 1 Conflict. Risk killing myself under the shelves, and getting into a conflict with the manager and everybody else! isnt that just the most marvelous idea ever thought of?! :D! =.= WHAT EXACTLY DO THEY MEAN BY MAKE A PROJECT ON RISK AND CONFLICT!? you mean come up with schemes to resolve conflict!? Is that a project?! =.= it's basically research only and not doing anything physical.

And here I am, smiling at you, --> :D! and not doing chem revision for tmr, or bio revision for the midyears, or maths revision on vectors, or PW PI for this coming monday! In short, I am completely DOOMED. And I am gonna watch naruto or bleach or something instead, because that, somehow, is going to help me score straight As for midyears!! HERE WE GO!!

My Mob size is like 110 already! Hahaha! Aim to reach 140 In the next 2 days. Quite possible.

Goig to Penang for about 3 days over the weekend, can't add on to the mob, So:( oh wells. Nothing much to do but wait for it to collect money and then use it to buy real estate again to up the income.

Gonna have to start soon.

Havent fully recovered from flu yet. And I'm eating chicken chop, singing and shouting already. Really ticks me off so I can't avoid the shouting part, but the rest. Actually, I avoided te shouting. I just answered indifferently to tick the other person off without shouting. Wasting my voice as far as I'm concerned. So no point. And cold drinks. Oh wells:)

Next I have project work. And I haven't got a freaking clue as to where to start. Perhaps somewhere on the news or headlines over the past few years. Minus away all the volcano eruptions, earthquakes, tsunamis, so on and so forth. Keeps happening these days, but there's no link to Pw. Hmm... I've started on something, but I can't get any leads to understanding it. Every sentence I come across has 1 or 2 important words that I don't understand. The terms are so damned important, spent two hours on it but I haven even got rid of the terminology yet. 1 thing after another. Every sentence I ask to the Internet to define, it gives mr a sentence with another 2 words I don't understand that are also terms-.- what kind of saddening even is happening to me?!D: joking:) anyway, I'm supposed to start on something that I'm not well versed In. So this-.- lol. After that I can go become a VIP already-.- So cheem-.- who came up with all these words in the first place?-.-

Now as I wait my chicken chop to come, I put on the headphones sets to rid myself of words that will hurt other people. Because I'll hurt the person who spoke the words most likely. Forget it. I'm gonna take it off. Hate headphones anyway. Don't want to wear it unless it's necessary. I'll have to tolerate. Off.

I dont know whether it has already been done. And I really don't know whether I should. One part of me says I'm being a busybody doing this.. But assuming it hasn't been done? Then how? Assuming it has been done, then I'd just be an extra guy doing something extra. But extra in this sense is good anyway, and I suppose it doesn't hurt to have one more, only problem is, it's coming from me, and that sucks because I don't want to be the one initiating this cause it looks like I'm still trying, lol, when I'm more or less quite settled to be friends already. Hmm... :) I'll do it anyway:) cause it's worthwhile. Now-.-!! I need to persuade the horse to drink water from the river. Howhowhow? You can bring a horse to water but you can't make it drink. BUT!! I'm a squid! I'm special :D I'll do my best. And then if it doesn't work, I guess, I've at least tried my best:)

Write the words in anger. Then delete them. Start again on a fresh script. Write the words in joy. Leave them. And then continue with life. Anger subsides whilst joy fills the heart and soul. And nothing else matters but to continue with life to the very end. At the end. Say it was well lived. Say it wad worthwhile. Say you've done all you had to and all you could do. Then all that remains, is an empty shell no one has ever needed to know of. No one but yourself, and the people that matter most.

Singing's a joy.
Luxury is a joy.
Friends are a joy.
Joysticks are not a joy.
And being put on the hit list twice in two days is most definitely NOT a joy.

Damn the bugger. I can't even kill the bugger if I wanted to. I tell u... When I reach a high enough level, I'll look for the guy and put him on the hit list everyday, and attack him like crazy.

An accomplished day! Did my GPFA. Wrote up my Chem notes till where we've stopped, done with bio ca and most probably won't fail, cause I failed maths ca, and upped my mob to 9 and bought all the equipment at one shot^^ ill do that again soon. I'll make sure I camp at this level with everything I've got.

Got up early and got to school myself today.

Bored. Have you forgiven me:(? Feel sad when I think about it.. But u probably don't read my blog now anyway.. I guess I'm just typing it out of my system in that sense... Sigh..

Going back home. Play the piano. That washes everything away for awhile. Then I'll go to sleep. Goodnight..

I can't believe how late school choir ends-.- it's 8, I'm in school. Or rather, I've just left school, and choir's still singing like crazy! Don't know how their voice can last. Lol. I'm gonna go home and try to study for the bio test on Wednesday, damn, still can't cover it because I keep forgetting even though I keep remembering. HELP! :( and jordan's damn funny. Hahahaha!! Squid mark!

I'm sorry, for jumping to conclusions:( forgive me, okay?

Cut my hair-.- until it's So short again-.- can't believe it. Have a splitting headache right now. I wanted to take panadol but I've been out the whole damn day and not been allowed to go home-.- damn screwed up. Always like this. Really sick of this already. Wonder how many more years I've got to do this.

Damn it man.. Headache's really killing me.

Have pe tmr too-.- I think I'll just pretend to die before it starts and then get an asthma attack. Might as well poke myself with a pin 2 times and say it's a vampire bite-.- just as good, cause there's no way of escaping the sadistic fun they're gonna put us through anyway. Probably not even If I get rammed down by a Cherie QQ. Lol. Cause I don't wanna be banged down by a truck, squids don't like trucks anyway

Now. I don't know what to do already. I'll find someone to sms:)

Now I end up playing 3 types of the same game. Whats becoming of me-.- this is all 1 person's fault. AIJING! -.-

Anyway, yesterday was quite an eventful day. My uncle came down from Canada yesterday, fetched him out for dinner and then back home. After which, met up with Glenn for lunch! Apparently, Jeanette and Nadira and Ethel couldn't make it, oh wells. Hehe. Talked to him about the usual stuff, life etc. Then he had church, So we ended that there. He took the mrt the wrong direction you know! Ended up making me wait-.-! This xi fu ah. Getting old already. Hehehehe.

Okok. After that went back home, snacked on some cup noodles while watching tv. Sang a bit. Then that's was about that. Left for dinner, and came home.

On the way home, at like 830, Ong sim smsed me. Lol. Asked me if I was free at 9-.-?! Haha! Okok. So went out with her and drank and talked abit. Anyway hadn't chatted with her in like ages already. Reached home at like 1020. Latest I've been home in a while. Would have been home later a month ago if I actually managed to go out for what was planned. Unfortunately nothing I've planned regarding it has ever gone right, right? Excuses. So many until I really couldn't give a shit about it anymore.

Watched vampire diaries, then incredible tales. Then that was that. Hahaha! Offs!

Don't know what to say to you anymore. Feel like scolding you. Just can't find the words or a way to do it.

A new love. Haha! Things aren't always what they seem. Nicest song I've ever heard in my life with such meaningful lyrics! Haha! I wish I could be like that. Busy alr.

Met Brian today. Suppose I may have misunderstood something. No matter, it's not exactly misunderstood. Oh weeelllls. Forget it. I guess it's over.

-.- funny song. Hahaha!! Oh holy! I forgot to answer someone! Whoops. Gtg go.

I'd say I don't care anymore, but then some part of me would be lying, cause I'm obviously still bothering to type. But I'm getting quite frustrated as it is. Can't rmb getting frustrated in this kind of scenario before. Guess it's gonna end soon. Or perhaps it already has. Now... Hehehehe. Where is MY life?

And by the way, Penang sells the best biscuits in the world:D hahaha! It's damn nice! I eat one piece and then tell myself to stop eating!! But end up eating again D: what's wrong with this man!! So nice^^!!

I'm gonna eat xiao long bao later!^^ and the egg tarts they sell there are nothing I've ever tasted before either. Damn nice!! I'll eat there later too!^^ more tasty delicacy in the history of forever! :D!!

Gonna go already. See if I can read Naruto manga.

I think that's about it already. Ending soon. Really sick of this anyway, not getting anywhere.

This boy just entered the clinic. He's in pain. I haven seen anyone in pain like that So far. He looks quite young, like 9-10 years old. Moaning away. I think moaning isn't exactly the correct word. It's notch below a scream. His finger apparently. I think he must have cut it badly. Either that or cut it off altogether. He has a bandage around his finger and is crying and everything.. Feels scary.. Makes me feel like panicking.

Nonetheless, I'm definitely going to be late for the outing.

Damned... I've never felt more tired than today. Completely restless. Feels like i can drop down on the floor and die anytime. Feel breathless. I really need a damned break. Thursday is the best day. I'll sleep through it.

Will this still work? I hope so. Cause if it doesn't I'm going to be lost again.
Still thinking. Perhaps it isn't good yet. It doesn't feel like I've done all I could. Shucks.. Perhaps i could string it:D haha!

Okok. Enough of that for now. Next problem is as usual, the second priority, homework-.- I'm lost already as it is-.- giri giri da-.- barely managing to keep up with bio, although my Monday i won't be keeping up anymore. I'm completely drowning in chemistry. I thought I was keeping up In maths but Ive failed maths ca... I couldn't believe it. Don't know what came over me. I just blanked out. Worst score in my life, but I'm supposed to get full marks.. Last Econs. Econs still manageable. Dumbest subject I've ever taken. Some idiots have managed to come up with laws for the most common sense things-.- the definition for demand in the text is so cheem-.- complicating stuff that's actually very simple to understand. This is what humans are good for anyway-.- making the simplest stuff completely unrecognisablr and then passing that on to the next generation and then the next. Now I've got some marginalist law and law of demand to follow, which actually is plain common sense-.- even an idiot who's 3 years old can understand-.-

Now. :) time to sleep. Still sick. My third type of antibiotic In an attempt to subdue the idiot bacteria that has consistently been finding opportunities to kill me while I'm already under attack by damned viruses. I'll ask pooh bear to kill them for me:D
-.-
Night.

Been so busy these days, and still sick, coughing away. Hardly had time to blog.
Feeling so drained now. Can't really think. But I'm still typing. Nothing seems to mean anythin to me right now cause I can't seem to comprehend.. Completely don't really know what I'm typing. Just typing for the sake of it.

Failed maths ca. Dont know what came over me. Got nosebleed the period before that, and then maths ca, can't think at all either, like now. .. I think I need a break, simply to recharge.

Not feeling well..

DO YOU KNOW WHY I'M BLOGGING NOW?!
ITS CAUSE I SAW THIS REALLY CUTE SQUIRREL RUNNING ACROSS THE ROAD AND JUMPING UP A WALL. Then it realized it could climb it and it jumped back down! xD ok. Byebye.
Ps I'm late for school. Mr. Three forgive me^^!! hehe.

Fallen sick. Pfft. All comes from not sleeping and drinking all the wrong things.
Just ate a chicken floss bun:) they're nice.

My voice is completely gone, and I have phlegm In my throat and post nasal drip from my nose down-.- and I took ba zhang kueh yesterday >:) Kehehe. This is exactly why-.- my voice is gone. Cause I'm a damn smart ass genius, that ate peanut ba zhang kueh when I'm very well aware of the stupid condition I'm In.
And the night before that. I stayed up at the wake, already knowing my throat's inflamed, and woohoo! I ate fries from macdonalds and chips from seven eleven. -.- great. Kicking myself in the ass ever so often. Pfft.

Now. I've been waiting like 1 hour plus for the doctor!:D but the doctor's so in demand! That I've got another 8 people or so before me. There were about 16 people before me just now at 1030 am in the morning.

Getting over it. But when the feeling gushes in, you'd just never expect it. And that's when all of it gets complicated.

Got to change the minipic soon. Looks like it's been removed and that's most likely why my whole blog's white. Shouldnt take more than 10 minutes. But I'll do that over the weekend.

Conveyed across with words,
These simply sound childish?

Conveyed across with feelings,
These simply sound childish too?

Why do these sound childish?
Because maturity expects people to keep it to theirselves.
Because maturity expects people to bottle up their worries, and release it when no one's there.

Tick tock, tick tock..
Gone are the days where expressions were useful,
Where they meant something to the world,
As meants something to yourself.

If the clock could turn the other way around,
Wouldn't that be magnificent?

No. It wouldn't.
For what's done is done.
What's accepted has to be accepted ultimately again In the end.

Then, now,
I am not going to placate others.
I am not going to plead with others.
I will not lie.
I will simply not bother.

I will try my best in everything that I do,
And if that isn't good enough,
Then it simply isn't good enough to be mine,
And I will forever stop bothering about it.

I have had enough.

He's gone.. Hopefully to the good lord. ... I feel like giving him a hug.. ..

=.= Found out I had Econs homework too =.= Thought I finished everything already. No matter, will finish it soon too. But not now, cause now, I wanna watch Bleach again. Dunno why, just makes all the worries leave, but then once the movie is over, the worries dont come back ^^ haha! weird though. But as long as it works for me =)

Homework is actually kinda fun now, so it's not exactly a worry. and I'm not worried about it. Always worried about the kind of stuff that, at the end of the day, never comes true. Ridiculous. Yet, worrying about it beats not worrying about it. Really tired, of worrying. So. Once this worrysome time is over, if it ever will be over, I'll stop once and for all, and hopefully never fall in the stupid hole again.

For it matters not anymore, what I am, or who you are.
It is only how this world works.
This world gives us choice, and takes away time.
For once time is past, and choice is made,
The world takes both, like a thief in the night,
never to return again.
The change we make, holds not for long.
The world we create, holds not for long.
Only what the creator chooses holds forever.
So why not take time, choose joy,
and give up remorse, regret, and sorrow.
Love those you wish,
regardless of the return they will shower you with,
and forgive those who have sinned, for without doing so joy is lost,
and accept the reality,
that time waits for no man,
and death awaits us all.

It's such a joy.

That's such a pain.

I suppose this is life:)

Somehow, I'll know that it'll all work out.
At other times, there's just nothing we can do about it.

I suppose this is life:)

Through all this, the first sentence is all we need.

Now I find out. Why do I find out now?! I would have been more careful if I found out beforehand. Nonetheless, it wouldnt have changed anything but this anyway.

I thought I was going to take a sip of Iced Lemon Tea, because someone had already tasted half a cup of it and said it indeed was Iced LEMON TEA. But instead, I took half a mouthful of coke. HOW CAN YOU NOT BE ABLE TO DIFFERENTIATE COKE AND ICED LEMON TEA?! Tch.. I suppose if it wasnt on purpose, but still... I feel like I broke something I was working not to break.




I've said I was sorry. I meant it with all my heart, so, if you dont want to accept it, what do I do now? I dont plan on forgetting about it if that's what you're thinking, so maybe you should tell me.

I have nothing better to do:) so I'll do a quiz.

1) Where are you now?
Newton Circus, 930 at night.

2) What was the last thing through your mind before attempting this quiz?
Thinking of attempting this quiz.

3) Do you have a pet?
A pet NAME-.- squidwert. Which part of me looks like that tell me-.-

4) What Religion are you In?
Christianity.

5) Ever had an ex girlfriend/boyfriend?
Why do all the quizzes have this question? No.

6) Do you like anyone now? (BGR)
Yes.

7) Name of the person is:
Nil

8) Favorite sport?
Basketball, badminton, tennis, jogging, swimming, brushing teeth. -.- minus brushing teeth.

9) Favorite Food or Drink?
PEPSI!! But i haven't taken it for WEEkS!:( food... Pasta? Chicken chop?:D

10) Last heard a song:
Listening to one now, Boulevard of broken dreams.

11) First thought when you wake up:
-.- There are so many ways you can wake up. Nightmare, woken up by some idiot, phone starts ringing, door starts getting knocked on, alarm goes off, wake up for no apparent reason, waking up In the morning. If it's the morning one, it's a person. If some idiot woke me, "who the heck woke me up?". Alarm goes off, "where's the snooze button?". Nightmare-.- use common sense, shocked. No apparent reason, usually got reason-.-

12) Second thought when you wake up:
What, now we're going into second thoughts?-.- hmmm. IMOBSTER! Or showering, or school, or homework, or whether the day's gonna be slack;D hopefully so. Otherwise:(

13) Last thought before sleeping?
A person also. Usually i go off to wonderland pretty fast whole thinking of the person anyway:) starts and ends nicely.

14) Do you like green plants?
WHAT?! I would have expected second last thought before going to sleep, but green plants?!?! No I like blue plants-.-

15) Racist?>:)
Whoops>:) What kinda question is this? Even if I am also can't say here right? I'm such a happy person. >:) right back at the author of this.

16) Like vegetables?
I swear whoever wrote this has some kinda fetish for plants

17) CCA:
Not confirmed, so nothing.

18) Worst thing you've done In your life?
Surprisingly.. I can remember this one. Very very bad thing. But I'm not gonna say here. And anyway there're lots of stuff to add to the list, but that's all over anyway.

19) Someone you can talk to about anything?
Brian? Kay Rui? Aijing? Ethel when alone?:) Jordan. Chuw Teck. Reena perhaps?

20) Person you hated the most.
Hate.. Such a strong word. Cant think of anybody really. Only in primary school, every once in a while, so it's not really considered hate.

21) Favorite Singer:
Jay Chou:) hmm.. Some here and there. Sam Tsui! Christina Grimmie.

22) Favorite Song:
Can't think of one right now. Keeps changing. Straight through my heart by backstreet boys. When you're lookin like that, by i can't remember who. Soul sister by Train. Top of the world.

23) Favorite subject:
Biology.

24) School you are attending.
Catholic Jc.. I wish i got into meridian.. So many reasons. But maybe it's a good thing i got here too. Get to cherish things more, and the workload's not as bad i think.. But still.. Oh well:) bright side of life always.

25) Favorite Animal:
Dog! Squirrel! Hamster??:D Cats! And for some reason, snake, and eagle. Don't know why. Not really favorite, just have the feeling that they're quite eccentric in a way.

26) Favorite Movie:
Is Bleach a movie?:D!! BLEACH!! And maybe Naruto. And shows by Nicholas cage or The guy who acted In I am Legend. I can't remember his name right now. Something smith.. Will Smith!:D

K that settles that. Adieus!;)

Whew.. Facebook. Haha. For once, it's helped meaningfully.

Anyway, Kay rui's trying to find the cheapest calculator being sold to buy!-.- !! Kay Rui's being a Kay Rui. Hahaha! Haven had the time to watch bleach yet, and it's been out for days. Busy as hell, until i heard the news. Pfft. Dropped everything... Now back to everything-.- still, beats worrying. I found out one way or another but i wish you'd reply.. But, perhaps you can't, so :) haha!

At the hospital now. Worried about my granddad too. So many things worth worrying about suddenly.

Work is really overloading me too. Being buried with it. Different teachers just covering everything whichever way they want it at the most ridiculous speed. Especially when you have 2 teachers teaching you the same subject and both giving you work In amounts you've never witnessed In your life on the same day, and telling you to get it done 2 days later.

Still, I'm so relieved now. Haha!! Don't care what work i have at home already. Haha!

Kk. Got to go already, at the hospital after all. No point coming here to blog.

I'm not going to live with her for the remaining half of my life. A bloody mess my life already is, because there's only one piece of the puzzle not bloody In place. Screw my life. I can't bother to justify someone else who just does not want to be justified. Go do what you please. Nothing to do with me anymore. Get lost.

Okay, I admit, I'm addicted to Imobster. Aijing =.=
The girl that's sitting to my right in class, Reena, is telling me to STOP PLAYING IMOBSTER. And in a way, I've stopped, while not really stopping, cause I've realised I have to stop doing the main thing I've been doing in the game, which is attacking almost everybody. The upkeep is rising like crazy and all the property is almost impossible to buy, UNLESS, you camp at a level where you can still afford to grow afew levels before all the new weapons start coming out. That way, it's quite safe, cause so far I have only had 1 guy who has attacked me when he has a higher level than me. He was only higher by 1 level, so I try to not reach the level right before new weapons come out before camping.

Anyhow, I haven attacked anyone on the game unless I really needed cash, and I haven used any energy at all for the last 35 hours perhaps? I've been spamming all my money on property and I've gotten like from 40K after minusing upkeep to 220000 in the past 2 days =). The rest is gonna take awhile already, cause must wait so long now. Like 8 hours to buy the 4.4 mil one.

ENOUGH ABOUT THE GAME, dammit.

=( The 2nd latest bleach episode has been removed! :O! Anyway, I cant do anything now. Or rather, I can do work now, but I dont want to cause I just did. Anyway, enough rubbish, small talk's finished with.







I'm thinking, I would really wonder, what kind of changes can happen to a person.. There's something new I would put under "Hates", and that, is Stubborn, Delusional, Suspicious people, who just refuse to believe what everybody else tells them, and only believes that they are right, even if it is about the most ridiculous things that I really dont want to mention. It's not trivial though, it's ridiculous, so hugely so, and it really makes me wonder how anyone can believe all this in the first place. I'm just so lucky that I happen to have to deal with this for so long, and that has made me think people who want to become psychiatrists must really have a crazy mental capacity, cause I cant even deal with one who thinks she's not crazy at all even though so many people are telling her the same thing and she just bites on to her way of warped thinking.

Have you ever seemed to notice, that when people get what they want, they go for the opposite of what they wanted, and then when they get that, they go back for what they initially had? It just seems to be human nature not to be able to appreciate things we hate, or the things we have for that matter, and just like it the way it is. Instead, we try to get rid of the things we hate, and get the things we like, and then realise at the end of the day that it was all pointless and stupid, because we cant get some things back, and we cant lose some things we get. Somebody, please explain to me, so I can feel that way about some things I want to appreciate but really hate and dont want.

It is not my nature to feel it now, but I know, that if I were an adult now, with a job, a wife, 2 children, a car, and most of all, freedom, it wouldnt be Freedom, and I would give it all away to get back to the life I had in Primary school with no freedom whatsoever, where I couldnt even go out and take a bus back home myself until I hit sec 1. Why? I want to be a child, with parents there to share my happiness with, without feeling embarrassed. When I grow up, all the roles are reversed. I have to deal with children, and frankly speaking, I really dont think I have the patience for it. I may have to deal with a wife that hopefully, is not stubborn. Stubborn is a really mild word, there must be another word to mean it at least 5 times. Strong character really is the undoing of everything in the family. I have to pay bills, I have to be an adult, mature, unable to laugh when I want to, unable to make mistakes. That's rubbish in every possible way for me to have it in my life. Then somebody please tell me right now, how is it I cant seem to enjoy the present where I cant go out with friends as often as I want to with my own free will, or why I hate interacting and making new friends in school, unless they really like to mix with me. Frankly speaking, if they're not interesting in being around me, I really couldnt bother who thought what about me anymore. I'd just do what I like anyway because I just cant seem to talk to people anyway, so it's actually quite a relief being alone =)

.. time to stop this.

Anyway =) I'm thinking about you too! Better to have loved, then to not have loved at all, never seen a more meaningful sentence.
Oyasuminasai;)

You know what's happened? You know what's happened? I'll tell you what's happened. My phone begins to type you with a ^^ behind it again. It's nit appearing here because I cancelled it. And the word in as well-.- bloody heck it just won't learn to undo it.

Anyway, aijing's got me hooked on to this game called imobster on the iPhone. It's like mafia wars, except it's on iPhone and I can play it when I'm free, which is technically, every 1 hour. For today at least. Because I kept getting attacked by others on the game and I don't have enough to defend myself. So:) I've come up with a plan. I want to advance as slowly as possible, and gain as much money as possible, and get rid of as many mobs as I can and leave it my mob at 4:) which I already have. And from
Now on, I won't lose again!-.- idiots keep whacking me.

Hehe. I think I know when the ^^ came out behind the word you alr. Last night, lol, with cute Chiobu. Oh well:) haha!

Now, bleach was NiCE!! Came our today:D! Watched it alr:( now nothing to do. So how?! Do work? Or play imobster? Hehehe. The obvious choice isss-----!!! !! Work:( . MY FOOT! Mobsterrr!!!

Roti prata house at Thomson Road sells the nicest roti prata I've ever tasted In my life!

Haven't bought a single textbook yet. Hope all the notes help me enough. Although I get the feeling I should really go get a textbook for chemistry. The notes are kinda useless.

No idea how to download my timetable yet-.- great. I'm gonna mug soon. Nothing much to do so might as well.

Boo yeah!! ^^! slept at 3 last night watching heroes! Wake up at.... 10!!! Woohoo!! LOL I woke up late. Is that considered late?:( no it's not damn it. In fact I think I slept at 330-400 cause my dad was snoring and I couldn't sleep!-.-

Damn it I'm goin out from 12 all the way to night time again. Don't like weekends.

I have to revise a bit of work. I think I'll bring it out while I go out later. Use my time a bit more efficiently anyway.

Just woke up. Gonna shower. See ya.

that is gone too huh? hahaha.. If it was just not to be then warp it off. Maybe it just was not meant to be.

Having to blog twice in one day, I'm pro!
Anyway, had a rather disturbing headache just now, but now it's gone ^^

Goin out with Brian next saturday. He's organising =)!

There's someone in my class with Jordan's gf's name =.= cherie.

Listing all sorts of random stuff.
My school canteen food's not nice and ex!
I CANT FIND MY TIMETABLE for everything cause I dunno where to download it.

My Bio HOD knows my name caused I simply asked him a question on the first week of school outside curriculum time because my bio teacher wasnt there and he came out instead. But I forgot his name and I screwed myself.

Chemistry sucks!:p

I dont take Physics!!! =D! Finally I dont take physics!

Econs is boring.

GP IS BAD FOR HEALTH. They make it sound very very hard.

what else do I take.

PE starts at 730=.=

PE teacher in charge is a Dark Knight. He cant pronounce the word H in anything! I Ave to tell you guys, tat if you guys dont take tings seriously, You will see me, and I'll slap you. I'm in czarge of student welfare as well, and I ave seen many people from your J2 come late, you better not come late. Dont write Parent's letter and give me ok? Unless your parents are doctors dont write letters because I only accept Mcs.

Talk alot alot alot, then butt pain cause sit on the floor very long.

I'm Maths rep!! I collect Maths notes and money to pay for maths notes, and it's the most troublesome thing, more troublesome then it looks esp since I dont talk much and then suddenly must start asking for money and all that kinda stuff, damn mafan.

25 people in my class and I can only remember 7-10 people's names.

I'm going to sleep.

Good night=)

Germaine's been transferred to my class! Yay! Now got somebody I know already! Of course, I know Reena too =) pfft -.- Wrote on my hand today saying she's awesome and rocks =.=

Just reached home, and just finished Tennis trials. Wasnt too bad =) maybe I'll get in! :D So many good things in one day, now, I'm just missing the very one I was looking for.. Still, I'll thank god for all the goods things that's happened in one day regardless =)

I am gonna watch naruto, and then ____, and then read naruto manga, and then if I'm bored, I'll rewatch bleach! hahaha! It's so nice!! the latest anime for bleach is like damn nice! okok, go alr. byebye

I have Never effectively felt more bored In my life, and I have never effectively hated music so much In my entire life. I have a bunch of choir dudes on my left, singing la mi la mi mi mi, la mi la mi mi mi, la mi la mi mi mi, over and over and over and over and over again for the past 1 and a half hours, and before that, there was a couple of girls playing the piano there, playing the chords for everytime we touch by cascada. It is a very nice song, but all they played was chords, and they played the same chords over and over and over and over again for the one and a half hours before choir started. Whole freaking school can hear I tell you. It's a central location in school. I really hate it. I don't feel like listening to music for awhile. And they're still singing. Screw this man. I'm going crazy. They're not synchronized, and they're singing the same damned thing over and over again. Why does everybody in this school seem to like to do that?! Playing piano for leisure also can play chord for 1.5 hours that's just plain idiotic. I can't even get away from the music. I feel like going over there and la mi la mi mi mi with them and then ask them to shaddap!-.- Argh!!! I've never felt like this before, can't believe this. I'll make it a point to leave this school early from now on-.- I don't remember Tk choir singing so loudly half the school could hear it. And of all places the most central I can't even get lost when I want to-.-! Now change alr. Is la mi la la la la over and over again-.- wtf?! HELP~~!!

damned it, it wasnt kayaking=.= it was dragonboating! and by Right, I should not have gotten wet at all, because, I'm in a boat, and the only reason to be in a boat is because you dont want to be in the sea. But by LEFT, we start attacking each other's boats and trying to capsize one another by pouring water at each other like crazy and that's when you end up completely drenched with water and flooded, cause the boats not DAMNED BIG! =.=!!! Was fun though :D!

Didnt get into Badminton :(!! I cant freaking work under freaking pressure!! My backhand was fine but I couldnt smash properly!! D: dunno what came over me.. shucks I hope it's not gonna be like that for tennis.. I kept smashing into the net! I dont remember smashing into the net last time I played! sigh, anyway it's over. I suppose I dont mind joining a club and taking another cca since clubs are so slack anyway.. Maybe music ministry :D play piano! so, either way la =)

I keep seeing Xian Kai and Earnest in school, even Hong xiang and Ying Jie! But Germaine seems to be somewhere I'm never at! Lol!! Cant find her wan!

My com is lagging. This is what happens when you have a com that runs at 1.4GHz and an internet that's slow as hell=.= Bikinibottom probably has better water-proof computers and internet lines as good as optic fibre cables.

I just ate A McWings meal, and then a teriyaki burger from macdonald's as well. Feel like vomitting. I told my sis not to buy dinner for me cause I was gonna get it myself but she got me a meal too and so, being a guy that doesnt like wasting food!, I ate ALMOST everything, cause I had 2 packets of fries and if I ate both I'd probably end up in the hospital puking my ass off.

have quite a number of breaks tmr.. I'm gonna have to bring some work to cover up for it. Otherwise it's gonna be quite problematic not being able to catch up, especially since a few of my classmates learnt all the Bio stuff the sch's teaching now in secondary sch!=.= PHOSPHOLIPIDS=.= WHEN DID I EVER USE THAT WORD IN SEC SCH?! and all sorts of funny proteins. It's so much harder to learn things these days. Gotta get used to it. Only thing I like seems to Maths again=) ahh. whatever. so tired today, no mood to be lame. stupid computer lagging like hell. I type one whole string of sentences and nothing appears, the moment I stop and wait for 5 seconds, the whole string of sentences suddenly pop outta nowhere=.= dumb com. Go back to sleep!

It's getting to me again. And that's just stupid.

School ended early as usual. Boring day, every teacher was just explaining class rules and how their subject is going to be the next 2 years and all that kinda stuff. I was yawning like crazy. But because I'm such a lovable boy, school ended at like 1130, and then break all the way, for a damn long time, YAY ME! (-.-just joking) to like 130, and then we had a small talk, and that was that. Went home with Xian Kai and Ying Jie.

The real timetable hasnt kicked in yet, I'm sure of it. This is too lax. Next week onwards will be worst, not that it makes much of a difference cause I'm keen to study! -.- must be 4A's influence. Dont EVER remember WANTING to study before getting into 4A=.=, and now... =) It's a good thing anyway I suppose.

Now. Screw this, but my bubblegum has officially spoilt!! And I havent finished eating all of them yet! :( hehehe, I'll go msia and buy a packet and eat there or something. cute little bubble gums.

1 step back, 2 steps forward, and now suddenly, 10 steps in. Lol. Suicide. What am I DOING!? =.= Relax Justin Relax.

Every bright and sunny happy afternoon, Ying Jie and I always arrive at the bus stop to see bus 154 leaving just before we get to it -.- this is some fate. Every time I'm with him!

No matter, may the force be with you.


I have canoeing tmr!!! Holy shit I dont feel like going. Kallang river again. It looks like that's the only place in singapore you can actually go canoeing. Muddy water must be so delicious that everytime it's canoeing, it has to be in a big longkang with muddy water in it right smack in a place called THE Kallang River. We should make that place a landmark =.= One day some alligator will bite someone's ass off. ... Later you see me tmr no ass.

damned it lah! I dowan go!~! buy mc.. heheh! how much also I dno. No choice lah, it'd be obvious I bought an mc if I skipped it anyway.

Buy a few Piranhas. accidentally drop them into Kallang River. Whoops. 800 footprints go into the river and 0 come back out! Wonderful!

damned it lah! walao! muddy water again. disgusting. and freaking boring anyway. Sunburns and blisters were my best friends anyway.

ENOUGH about THE Kallang River. Now what? I'm hungry! :D what to eat? Open my fridge to find!!!! Air. T.T

Walao eh. Fridge no food only got drinks. GOT COKE! But cant drink T.T What's the point!?

Damn Long post I know, but I'm bored! And THIS is what happens when I am bored! E=Justin^2. I come up with new mathematical formulas to show -.- forget it.

I'm going to look for maggy noodles. dont know how to spell maggy so excuse me if I spelt ur company name wrong goodbye:D

Uh-oh. Hehehehe.. There's been a bad trend lately. I've been doing a bit over the top.

Anyhow, schools going just fine! Ended at 2 today:) which is very much more than acceptable already for me:D cause I thought everyday would end at 5 if not later-.- and now:D!!! 2!! Anyway, went to get stuff, and had lunch with Dorothy. Long time since I've seen her alr, lol, but we have lunch every once in a while:) just to keep In touch. Not very often I have lunch with her though. Kay Rui and xinni and Aijing are gonna meet up with me once every month too:D just to keep In touch :)! Next trip is to my house-.- I wonder if I'll ever get to see Kay rui's. I've seen Aijing's and xinni's alr! So next must be Kay Rui!!:D I'll stalk him if I have to>:) Hehehehe!

Sch uniform is nice fitting for the shirt, but the pants are just screwed man! And the colour's not nice AND I don't like light blue uniform. But not much choice, meridian's is light blue too anyway, but it just doesn't fit me. Light blue's kinda weird. Shirt is just the correct size though!:) pants I really feel like tapering. I look like some cloud In the sky -.- light blue-.- makes me feel very un-lively, if there was such a word, but now there is, cause I've just invented it >:)

Starting with light weights as it is, going with more reps for now. Don't want to do heavy ones and make myself shrink!

Classmates aren't exactly what I had in mind. I expected 20 guys and 5 girls, but I'm in a class with the exact opposite of all the other classes I know, 17 girls 8 guys-.- shucks. Couldn't even be bothered to look at girls anymore, not much meaning left to it, and since there're not many guys to talk to either for fun, I'm just gonna be myself and shut up.

All hyped up to work!! Can you believe it?!?! Cause I can't. Know why? Cause I can't believe alot of things:D rubbish-.- whoever's reading this must be thinking I'm lame, but for some reason, ever since I've entered Jc, I've been nothing but lame cause that's how all my seniors tell jokes, and so is Kay Rui!!

Kay Rui: why couldn't the bicycle stand?
Me: dunno
Kay Rui: hehehe! Cause it's 2 tyred.
Me: -.-

Kay Rui: Eh Eh, what did the big bucket say to the small bucket?
Me: huh?
Kay Rui: you look quite pale.
Me: hahahaha!

Kay Rui: why haven't the
Whoops can't say that one, it's racist, can't put it here, later get kidnapped at night.

I'm eating chicken chop with spaghetti:D!! Are you?? Noooo ur not!! Why not?! Cause I'm lame! Hahahahaha. Haha. Haha. Ha. -.-

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Played tennis with Mian Yu and ben tan today:) haha! And as usual we lost a couple of BaLLS!! I didn't lose mine though, Mian Yu doesn't have em and ben tan's are still with em. Hehehehe. As sick as that sounds, it's literally true. I didn't lose any tennis balls I brought, Mian Yu didn't bring any balls or a even a raquet cause I lent her mine, and some of ben tan's balls were lost but I gave him mine so he didn't lose them and I didn't lose mine technically, I gave em. But That's sick too so forget it, hehehe!

Anyway, played for damn damn long, now finished alr. Ben tan invited me up to his house, and his mother gave me an angpow-.- Maaan!! I'm so angpow-givable. Everywhere I go people automatically give me!! I wasn't even expecting it!! Damned!! Oh well:) guess I should say thanks!:)

Played piano at his house awhile, then father picked me up and I left. Now eating lunner:) haha!!

I guess you're letting me into your life gradually. I'll wait:) bit by bit is fine with me:) I know it's not going to last, but I'll make it last as long as it can:) no regrets.

Very fun day!:D went out to simei today at like 1230 to find Aijing sitting by burger king. Haha! Got there slightly late cause I waited for xinni downstairs her block but she never came out!!-.- hahaha!!:) anyway, all went to eat at eighteen chefs:) it was quite okay and the price was quite worth it:)

Left for xinni's house, played bridge for like god knows how long, and then Kay Rui had to leave:(:( so we sent him off In bus 9^^! lol. Tempted to say cloud 9-.- lame yeah I know.

Then went back to xinni's block, the 1st floor, and there are just some things I'll never smell willingly again cause I'd be insulting a lot of dark soldiers who will appear like at 12midnight and kidnap me. Haha!

Then, Xin Ni let us go her house!! LOL. :D her mother's very friendly :) haha! And gave us angpow:) lol! Thank you!! I'm not the angpow fanatic but thanks!:) then watched YouTube, played a board game that I can't remember the name of and Aijing ended it early but shouting the answer aloud!!!:( haha!!

Kk, lazy blog alr, gtg anyway:) see ya!

I ain't the fan of getting Ang pows, haha! Neutral:)

Visiting everybody today. Probably be going to Johor later. Lol:)

I slept at 2 last night, and I thought it was really really late! And ppl sleep later than 2am!! That's crazy! Ppl need beauty sleep mans!

I don't know how but I fell asleep! And dreamt !! Again!! I was In some kinda warehouse! With TORTOiSES!! With POLicE!! Scary sia! I rmb abit here a bit there. My grandparents were in the dream.. And some classmates here and there shucks. Haha. That's all I can rmb. What's wrong with the tortoises man??!?!?
Freaking weird!! Keep dreaming of stuff!! Now Aijing Sms me zi kua. Girls like to do that. I've learnt. Right Chiobu? Hehe. Girls brain all hardwired wrongly!! Hahaha!!

Seems like it's very easy to dream these days. I mean while sleeping, not with my eyes open. Dream about the same thing twice in the past 2 nights. Must be from all the planning. Anyhow. Its 735am, I'm in sch, and have nothing to do because the others are having some kinda prayer session and I'm not joining, so I have till 840?? It was optional anyway. So.. Now wad?

I don't believe I've ever given so much thought to stuff so often in my life. It's like planning every step of the way with regard to time, this is crazy. Last time I did this, was when I was gonna be late for smth impt, which was not too long ago. But thinking about the nearest event before that?? -.- like what? Primary school?? Hahaha!! It's quite nice seeing what I've planned play out, and -.- scary, cause scared run off time. Damn it. Haven drank coke for like what?! 2 weeks?!?!? That's crazy too! Not even a sip!D: so sad... Wanna drink.. *zombie face & sound* must drink .. Coke! ^^

After being in Cjc for so long, I've consistenlt been running into Earnest, and Xian kai, but Germaine only once?! Made 1 or 2 new friends, but most of the time being alone is nicer:) mass dance is finally over, cheering sessions are over too, most of the stuff are.

My Ogls are Anselm, sherilyn, and clarissa(?) and they're like! The best!:D but my og is a bit weird. Some people I don't really want to end up mixing with cause they're really just not on the same page as everyone else.

Piglet!!!
Random statement

Lehpak in sch now with absolutely nothing to do. My battery has gone down by 1 percent typing this whole post, and there's nothing to think about at the moment cause the ball starts rolling tmr onwards. Hopefully they give us the dates of the cca trials and cca commencement date etc. Sch ends pretty late.

Bored to death. I'm bored to death. lalalala~! bored to death! I'm
Bored to death! lalalala~!

WHAT TO DO NOW?! :( sian!! If Brian were here that'd be nice. So would it be if Jordan or Chuw Teck were. Or Chiobu;)! HA! Or anyone close-.- Cause only the ghosts here are close to me much. And Jon's pretty friendly. I thought it was spelt John but I was mistaken.

DAMN IT! I'm gonna go for a morning walk:D! Like In a park!! Except in a school now-.-

Trip to Msia has been scrubbed, granddad's in the hospital again for the past week, hope he gets well soon.. Visited him today and played chinese chess with him, and as usual, I only won like 1-2 out of the 4 games. Lol, I rmb a time when I lost 9 games straight. haha. I've been improving, but this is definitely his condition speaking as well. Anyway, made him quite happy today playing there =)

Now I'm at home watching 24! Again! New season, and I've almost watched 3/4 of it in the past few days. Sch opening doesnt really give me much time to watch stuff anymore, not mention I watch Heroes when my family is at home cause they wanna watch that and I only have 1 computer, Which runs at 1.4GHz and is freaking ancient. New ones run at like 2.6-3.2 GHz!

Meanwhile, I have a very cute box of chocolate biscuits sitting one hand's reach away from me and I CANT EAT IT!
"why?" you ask? Because I have the biggest Ulcer I have ever gotten in my life and it has lasted only 4-5 days, growing bigger with everything appetising I put into my mouth. And "Cooling" stuff like watermelon and ling yang doesnt HELP me get RID of my newest and most biggest fan in my mouth.
Not to mention I've been eating rojak for the past 3 days despite the stupid thing in my mouth, and gargling listerine, and gargling salt water, and what have you not and it likes me so much it just grows even bigger! Great!

Parents are back. They have some tradition like buying new clothes every chinese new year kinda thing, and I've got a new shirt! I just hope my mum doesnt write anything on it, like for example, my name, because maybe my shirt can get stolen when I'm wearing it!! I just told her not to write it. Mark my words, 1 month from now I'll see my name there.

Gonna go church later.

Raining cats and dogs and horses and every other type of animal you can think of. From morning until now. Orchard Road's gonna be a very sad place again, and the whole world feels as if it's in air condition! I turn on the fan and it feels like I turned on the air-con, no kidding. Even my feet feel cold and I'm wearing jeans the whole time. Squidwert's a very happy man, I mean squid, cause Orchard Road's gonna turn into his hotel for what, a week?

My mum just told me to take a piece of the Chocolate biscuit, and my sister just opened the packet in front of my face! YAY! Guess wad I'm gonna do. Hi Ulcer I'm gonna feed you with more nice food

Rojak is damn nice:D haha! I haven drank coke or pepsi for almost a week! Haha!!
Not gonna last long, will have to drink once in awhile for the awesomeness of COKE AND PEPSI!!

Peach tea, green tea, lemon tea, and soya bean are now coke and pepsi's replacement. Oh well:) it's a good thing I suppose, but never in my life is anyone gonna persuade me to drink fruit juice instead-.- hate juice. But anyway, I wonder how I was persuaded to stop drinking pepsi anyway?-.- it works in mysterious ways-.-

Anyhow, orientation is getting quite irritating. Making us do all sorts of cheers and weird games! Hate cheers. I don't care what people think about me saying this, but cheers are a waste of time. I would automatically make friends without 4 days of cheers. It's really a waste of time. Still, I'm participating in it, although not extremely enthusiastic like those people which are always enthu, but still.

I've chosen subject combi and cca today in like 10 minutes. Lol. Didn't even discuss with parents much, so fast rigggghht?:D

Gotta go alr! See ya!