just finished tuition. early today, for once. nice day today.. very nice day. lol. not just because it's teacher's day, but mainly because I talked to you. lol. i dont feel like ever unblocking this blog now, because how on earth do I go about erasing ff the past 10 over posts that all have been talking about you? maybe I'll post a few normal ones, I doubt you'll check my archives anyway.
Tuition was ok, I forgot to bring the banana for the dog, must have made it sad, I MUST REMEMBER NEXT WEEK! The dog still barks when ppl enter the house or when ppl leaves the house =.= very fiercely=.= even at me=.=.= even when it usually does not bark at me =.=.=.= at all T.T walao, all because of his banana I didnt bring is it?! T.T Now the dog doesnt even high-five me when I tell it to =.= YOU DONT EVEN DESERVE HALF A BANANA damn it. bark at me somemore i tell you =.= I cut off ur banana=.=
anyhow, using very old, and very spare phone=.= it has like, crack right across it's screen, but it has some sentimental value to me, so i didnt throw it away after like what? 2 years? I had some really nice messages inside there, but they were all from someone else, the one before I liked you. I'm going to delete all of them, I dont know why, but I dont feel like deleting them, but I will. No point keeping them, I'm not thinking of her anymore..
Anywayy, the important thing here, is my screen is Friking CRACKED, and it's not cracked like an iphone, it's literally cracked into half =.= or at least the screen is. I wonder if I should make a police report on the iphone thingy. dont think it'll actually do much help though.. there's no way for the police to track it anyway. If i ever get evidence on who took it, i'll rip the guy in two and feed him to sharks=.= bastard, I'll repay him tenfold.
Anyhow, looks like I'm stuck for the time being. Prelims this coming friday, still studying format. What on earth do you use to sign off when it's an informal letter? Not yours' truly!? WHY!??! WADS WRONG with being true anyway=.= And I dont think it's yours sincerely either =.= And wads wrong with being sincere =.= shucks, all this kind of weird culture to write freaking letters, come to think of it, who on earth writes freaking letters now anyway =.= crap. Now wad? Seems like all the things we're learning is useless, I dont have any intention of having a job related to either history nor geography =.= I dont remember ever writing letters, although I've received one, for sentimental primary school values when we graduated, either than that.... =.=
Anyway, went to get a present for Yan Qi, her bday falling smack in the middle of prelims. lol, at least get her something to lighten her mood i spose. then I got myself a kepo^^ Now can strum any key!! Yay!! So happy. dont have to keep singing in C major anymore =.= so low.
And I dno why, but i really look up to Mr Edwin Lim alot, although many NCC landers dont like him, I think he's great. He's super friendly, knows when to be strict and when not to be strict, doesnt blow up very easily, muscular, nice voice, I dont know wad to see in him that's so bad for ppl to use the word hate =.= such a strong word, I dont even think I hate anyone yet. no, wait, maybe the guy that took my phone, yup, that'll be like, I wanna kill you, not hate=.=
Very long posts these days, maybe you wont see the rest at the bottom, lol, maybe I'll do that. =.= not gona erase what I recorded. Astala Vista.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Monday, August 30, 2010
lost my phone.. or rather, lost it to someone else.. I keep seeing those stupid chinese compo tests, saying that newspaper reportings sight that teenagers cannot live without their handphones, and I've always thought that was rubbish, in a way it still is, but it's not in another.
I've lost a phone, worth a few hundred bucks, do I feel sad? yes. but for the wrong reasons..
...why? Why? WHY!? I lost a phone worth a few hundred bucks, but I'm not sad because I lost these few hundred bucks.. I'm sad, I feel crushed, somewhere inside, it feels pain, but not physical, why? because I cant talk to you, and because I've lost what I've planned to give you, which is stored in that phone. I lost evidence of that memory, that I wanted to give you as a going away present.. That was my main intention, for even taking a picture with you that day, and now, I've lost it.. I've lost it... What a childish reason to feel sad for.. I should be feeling sorry for losing the phone because my dad bought it for me, and because I've wasted away his money.. yet.. I'm feeling sorry for myself, for all these stupid reasons, these reasons that are completely useless, because you say I dont even have a chance with you, then why? why am I feeling this if I know you wont accept me? why? why am I feeling this? why? why?? I feel jealous.. when you talk to other guys, even when I know they're not going for you, and you not going for them, but I feel it, I dont want to feel it.. I want to forget it.. I put up a happy face and say, nah, it's fine with me, I tell everybody that, but i cant feel it, I cant feel what I say.. I want you. I want to have that chance with you.. but it looks like I'll never get it.. I want to see you laughing because of my jokes, because of something I said that made you happy.. I want that so badly.. so much.. but.. now.. I cant even give you what I planned to give you, I planed it out, every little thing.. every part of it.. but I screwed up, I lost everything.. I lost the picture I looked at when I felt sad, when I felt troubled, when I felt irritated, when I felt bored, when I felt angry, all that's left is the picture in my head, the very same one that I can bring up, but disappears just as easily as I brought it into view in my head. I've treasured everything I've ever had with you, come to think of it, I've never deleted one of your messages since months ago, I feel alive again when I saw those.. I lost all these evidence of these memories, not only about you, but in a way, about jordan, kay rui, chuw teck wee, xin ni, aijing, shu tong, almost all the happy times I had. I still have all that in my head.. but.. I feel so sad about losing it.. I cant even talk to you in person... I feel.. I feel so.. so.. sad.. I can always chat with you, yes? I have a sim card here right with me now. I have a spare phone here right with me as well.. but I feel like I'm bothering you.. I feel like telling you, how much I think about you, how much I feel about you, how much i would give for you, how much you really mean to me.. I feel like telling you everything, everything inside me that hurts like hell, how much I just want to see you and talk to you, a nice conversation with you can be my birthday present, I dont need anything more than that.. but I cant speak, I cant tell you, I cant show you, how much exactly I feel for you, yet you talk to other guys so easily, I cant stand it.. I just..cant take it.. I try to get you out of my life. It's hurts as hell.. I dont sms you for one day, and i dream about you, I want to tell you so much.. but you cant accept me, I cant talk to you, and the more i do, the more i find that you find me irritating.. you're not as open to me about your life as you were a few months ago.. can we go back there? ..... I dont want to make a wrong move.. I want to make you happy.. I want to do so many things, go out with you and have fun.. but because I'm stupid.. because I'm quiet.. it's just not my nature to express myself at all when I'm talking to you or anybody else at all.. I cant even think about what to say anymore, that's why i always listen when there's a conversation going on.. please... I dont know what to do anymore... my studies, my sleep, my pain, my calm, piano songs, my entire life, all controlled by you.. and I cant break free, I dont want to break free.. so many I wants... why wont you tell me for once.. what do you want? what do you feel? what are your troubles? how is your life? what food do you like? where do you like to go? what do you look for in guys? how are your friends like? what is your past like? why would you rewind back to when you said you would? would you like to stay back and study...? would you feel sad leaving sg, what songs do you like?.. anything... anything you wish to tell me.. I'm here, just waiting, waiting for the words to come out of your lips.. tell me about yourself, I know enough rubbish about myself, I'm sick of everything i know about myself, I want to know everything about you.. but you're sealed up.. and I cant open you up.. I've tried so many times, but I'm very sure there's someone apart from me whom you've at least confided at least something to.. I dont want to know from anyone else, I dont want to find out about you from others.. I want you to tell me yourself, with your own will, with your own lips.. then, there's meaning for me to know.. then, there's a feeling in me that says you told me, you chose to tell me, there's a meaning in it in itself, that you trust me enough to confide in me.. I have not gained that. I have not gained all these, I have not gotten anywhere.. I just feel my own pain.. but... I still have the memories living in me, and I'll wait, until you're ready, until you choose to open up, until you trust me, until I am comfortable expressing myself around you, until I am able to make you laugh and smile because of me, until I can get rid of the envious feeling in me, until you will shine some light down into this dark blind heart of mine, because it's been empty, and it's telling me to tell you.. i really really, really like you... I'm going to sleep. goodnight..
I've lost a phone, worth a few hundred bucks, do I feel sad? yes. but for the wrong reasons..
...why? Why? WHY!? I lost a phone worth a few hundred bucks, but I'm not sad because I lost these few hundred bucks.. I'm sad, I feel crushed, somewhere inside, it feels pain, but not physical, why? because I cant talk to you, and because I've lost what I've planned to give you, which is stored in that phone. I lost evidence of that memory, that I wanted to give you as a going away present.. That was my main intention, for even taking a picture with you that day, and now, I've lost it.. I've lost it... What a childish reason to feel sad for.. I should be feeling sorry for losing the phone because my dad bought it for me, and because I've wasted away his money.. yet.. I'm feeling sorry for myself, for all these stupid reasons, these reasons that are completely useless, because you say I dont even have a chance with you, then why? why am I feeling this if I know you wont accept me? why? why am I feeling this? why? why?? I feel jealous.. when you talk to other guys, even when I know they're not going for you, and you not going for them, but I feel it, I dont want to feel it.. I want to forget it.. I put up a happy face and say, nah, it's fine with me, I tell everybody that, but i cant feel it, I cant feel what I say.. I want you. I want to have that chance with you.. but it looks like I'll never get it.. I want to see you laughing because of my jokes, because of something I said that made you happy.. I want that so badly.. so much.. but.. now.. I cant even give you what I planned to give you, I planed it out, every little thing.. every part of it.. but I screwed up, I lost everything.. I lost the picture I looked at when I felt sad, when I felt troubled, when I felt irritated, when I felt bored, when I felt angry, all that's left is the picture in my head, the very same one that I can bring up, but disappears just as easily as I brought it into view in my head. I've treasured everything I've ever had with you, come to think of it, I've never deleted one of your messages since months ago, I feel alive again when I saw those.. I lost all these evidence of these memories, not only about you, but in a way, about jordan, kay rui, chuw teck wee, xin ni, aijing, shu tong, almost all the happy times I had. I still have all that in my head.. but.. I feel so sad about losing it.. I cant even talk to you in person... I feel.. I feel so.. so.. sad.. I can always chat with you, yes? I have a sim card here right with me now. I have a spare phone here right with me as well.. but I feel like I'm bothering you.. I feel like telling you, how much I think about you, how much I feel about you, how much i would give for you, how much you really mean to me.. I feel like telling you everything, everything inside me that hurts like hell, how much I just want to see you and talk to you, a nice conversation with you can be my birthday present, I dont need anything more than that.. but I cant speak, I cant tell you, I cant show you, how much exactly I feel for you, yet you talk to other guys so easily, I cant stand it.. I just..cant take it.. I try to get you out of my life. It's hurts as hell.. I dont sms you for one day, and i dream about you, I want to tell you so much.. but you cant accept me, I cant talk to you, and the more i do, the more i find that you find me irritating.. you're not as open to me about your life as you were a few months ago.. can we go back there? ..... I dont want to make a wrong move.. I want to make you happy.. I want to do so many things, go out with you and have fun.. but because I'm stupid.. because I'm quiet.. it's just not my nature to express myself at all when I'm talking to you or anybody else at all.. I cant even think about what to say anymore, that's why i always listen when there's a conversation going on.. please... I dont know what to do anymore... my studies, my sleep, my pain, my calm, piano songs, my entire life, all controlled by you.. and I cant break free, I dont want to break free.. so many I wants... why wont you tell me for once.. what do you want? what do you feel? what are your troubles? how is your life? what food do you like? where do you like to go? what do you look for in guys? how are your friends like? what is your past like? why would you rewind back to when you said you would? would you like to stay back and study...? would you feel sad leaving sg, what songs do you like?.. anything... anything you wish to tell me.. I'm here, just waiting, waiting for the words to come out of your lips.. tell me about yourself, I know enough rubbish about myself, I'm sick of everything i know about myself, I want to know everything about you.. but you're sealed up.. and I cant open you up.. I've tried so many times, but I'm very sure there's someone apart from me whom you've at least confided at least something to.. I dont want to know from anyone else, I dont want to find out about you from others.. I want you to tell me yourself, with your own will, with your own lips.. then, there's meaning for me to know.. then, there's a feeling in me that says you told me, you chose to tell me, there's a meaning in it in itself, that you trust me enough to confide in me.. I have not gained that. I have not gained all these, I have not gotten anywhere.. I just feel my own pain.. but... I still have the memories living in me, and I'll wait, until you're ready, until you choose to open up, until you trust me, until I am comfortable expressing myself around you, until I am able to make you laugh and smile because of me, until I can get rid of the envious feeling in me, until you will shine some light down into this dark blind heart of mine, because it's been empty, and it's telling me to tell you.. i really really, really like you... I'm going to sleep. goodnight..
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Didn't sleep well last night, woke up in the middle of the night thinking.. Tch. Tired.. Just finished tuition, i feel like smsing again. But there's no point really, if I'm just treading on to your nerves.. Feel down and depressed. Can't let it affect me. I still have work waiting for me at home.
Just ate lunch. Ate quite alot, starving. Appetite's been growing lately.
Ok. What work should I start on when I get back home? I'll revise my bio notes, then I'll attempt the next section of the paper and hopefully I won't have to refer to the book for any of the questions. Then if I still have time, I'll start revising one of the chem papers I have, and if I sill have time, then I'll start on one of the chem rev exercises that's due after holidays. Doubt I'll hve that much time though.
Just ate lunch. Ate quite alot, starving. Appetite's been growing lately.
Ok. What work should I start on when I get back home? I'll revise my bio notes, then I'll attempt the next section of the paper and hopefully I won't have to refer to the book for any of the questions. Then if I still have time, I'll start revising one of the chem papers I have, and if I sill have time, then I'll start on one of the chem rev exercises that's due after holidays. Doubt I'll hve that much time though.
... i swear, i dno what's gotten into me. I dont even know what's so special about you, but I've never dreamt of anyone I ever liked before for 2 consecutive nights. It's like after I've blocked you out, you enter my dreams instead, what's up with that?
On the other hand, Kay rui almost getting scorched by me was not a very nice experience, but he should have at least told me he took away the damned thing before he screwed up my anxiousness for damned nothing =.= idiot. hope ur reading this Kay rui=.=
I've made one more resolution. For the next year, I'm never going to divulge any secrets to anyone anymore except the one person I always have been. No more. If I ever divulge anymore secrets to anyone but her, I'll kick my own bucket =.= This is going out of hand.
And one more thing. From this day onwards, I dont want to know about other people's secrets that are not related to me in any way anymore, unless it concerns anything related to what I'm currently worried about, which I shouldnt, really.
I'm trying to get it done.. I'm putting in more effort, but this.. it doesnt feel like enough. Not anywhere near. O lvls is a month away. I'm not anywhere near prepared. going to mug. bye.
On the other hand, Kay rui almost getting scorched by me was not a very nice experience, but he should have at least told me he took away the damned thing before he screwed up my anxiousness for damned nothing =.= idiot. hope ur reading this Kay rui=.=
I've made one more resolution. For the next year, I'm never going to divulge any secrets to anyone anymore except the one person I always have been. No more. If I ever divulge anymore secrets to anyone but her, I'll kick my own bucket =.= This is going out of hand.
And one more thing. From this day onwards, I dont want to know about other people's secrets that are not related to me in any way anymore, unless it concerns anything related to what I'm currently worried about, which I shouldnt, really.
I'm trying to get it done.. I'm putting in more effort, but this.. it doesnt feel like enough. Not anywhere near. O lvls is a month away. I'm not anywhere near prepared. going to mug. bye.
Friday, August 27, 2010
Last PE lesson..
I tried to block it out, guess what happened? I dreamt about you instead. When I woke up this morning I lost track of what the dream was about, but the second after I woke up, I told myself to go back to sleep cause I wanted to continue dreaming.. Then after bathing and showering and while eating breakfast, I tried my best to recall the dream, and, I did. I felt jealous in the dream somemore.. What kind of rubbish is this, how can it be affecting me up to this extent, ridiculous. I try to block you out, I don't try bot to talk to you for one night, and the moment I try talkin to you one night later, I can't block you out-.- wtf.. What's wrong with me?
Played in the same game as you just now, feels damn nice, nicest way to have a last PE lesson..
Very bad stuff happened today. First thing was this morning whilst talking to Germaine, my convers was overheard by who I was talking about, I suppose since I dared to say such things then I should not be afraid to let him hear it, he knows it anyway.
Then, today happens to be the last PE lesson ever in this school... So saddening.. Feel like I've lost something in me..
Found out something today, rather shocking, and the events as well.
And then found out today that baldy really has no sense in buying presents=.=
did all the bio work she gave today, even though she said not to do mcq and essay questions-.-(I just found out essay questions actually means the entire section b) ended up doing everything except last question today. Then there's that maths paper.. Haven done that yet. And have 2 chemistry papers as well. I plan to do those on Monday and Tuesday, hopefully. I have to finish all the homework before holiday starts, so I can catch up on revision.
Shyt I tink I left so
ethi g at jordan's place. Went to his place at 730 or so, played guitar with him and sang:D damn fun.
Played in the same game as you just now, feels damn nice, nicest way to have a last PE lesson..
Very bad stuff happened today. First thing was this morning whilst talking to Germaine, my convers was overheard by who I was talking about, I suppose since I dared to say such things then I should not be afraid to let him hear it, he knows it anyway.
Then, today happens to be the last PE lesson ever in this school... So saddening.. Feel like I've lost something in me..
Found out something today, rather shocking, and the events as well.
And then found out today that baldy really has no sense in buying presents=.=
did all the bio work she gave today, even though she said not to do mcq and essay questions-.-(I just found out essay questions actually means the entire section b) ended up doing everything except last question today. Then there's that maths paper.. Haven done that yet. And have 2 chemistry papers as well. I plan to do those on Monday and Tuesday, hopefully. I have to finish all the homework before holiday starts, so I can catch up on revision.
Shyt I tink I left so
ethi g at jordan's place. Went to his place at 730 or so, played guitar with him and sang:D damn fun.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
I think I'm bothering you, cause if I feel I'm bothering you, then I think you should be able to feel it too.. I think I've practically talked every night, i don't know what's wrong, maybe I'm over sensitive? Telle if you're angry ok? Sigh, no point writing it here, and you're too kind to say that anyhow.. :) talked to you for once face to face and actually see you smiling a bit after so long, I think I've lost it, feeling happy about insignificant things, stuff it.
Blocked ears, sleepy, and really worried about physics.
Taking medicine again, stupid cough won't go away.
My dad hired a horror film=.= Ju-On, and he wants to watch it now at 10-.- how on earth am I going to be able to sleep after this..?-.-
I think about you, too often, it's affecting me.. I'll just remain hopeful :) until we part at least:) or get together. I think I'll clear this after unblocking my blog. Hopefully I'll remember, and no be lazy-.- Ju-On, great=.= nightmares tonight for me. Nite, to my blog. hehe
Blocked ears, sleepy, and really worried about physics.
Taking medicine again, stupid cough won't go away.
My dad hired a horror film=.= Ju-On, and he wants to watch it now at 10-.- how on earth am I going to be able to sleep after this..?-.-
I think about you, too often, it's affecting me.. I'll just remain hopeful :) until we part at least:) or get together. I think I'll clear this after unblocking my blog. Hopefully I'll remember, and no be lazy-.- Ju-On, great=.= nightmares tonight for me. Nite, to my blog. hehe
Friday, August 20, 2010
Man, feel so much better after sleeping, headache's completely gone, it was a nice dream while it lasted, but in a way, I'm glad I'm back in reality:) there's not much meaning to it if it's not real I suppose:) but it was nice while it lasted. Lost count of the number of times i've dreamt of you feeling happy cause of me already, but that's so not real in real life:) waiting for a miracle huh? :) oh well.
Rain rain rain=.= so freaking wet everywhere. Can't believe this kinda nut weather, outside like got aircon liddat so cold=.=
Ben Cheng was walking out the hall today, and he rammed his head into the half-open shutter on the way out. Walao. Jialat. Then he lying on the floor, I don't know is real or exaggerated wan. Mr lim was there, he was like "oh my god, Ben Cheng, you ok not? " LOL, but seriously, this kinda thing like only happen in comedy movie wan lor. And afew days I remember khai qi was walking past with Sara and 2 other girls, then khai qi said hi to me, and the other girls with her all looked at me, then I replied hi, and one of the girls rammed into the pillar outside our class, laughed like siao. Hahaha!! All the weird stuff that seldom see happening all happening. Hahahaha! Russells coming over now. Got to go. See ya:)!
Rain rain rain=.= so freaking wet everywhere. Can't believe this kinda nut weather, outside like got aircon liddat so cold=.=
Ben Cheng was walking out the hall today, and he rammed his head into the half-open shutter on the way out. Walao. Jialat. Then he lying on the floor, I don't know is real or exaggerated wan. Mr lim was there, he was like "oh my god, Ben Cheng, you ok not? " LOL, but seriously, this kinda thing like only happen in comedy movie wan lor. And afew days I remember khai qi was walking past with Sara and 2 other girls, then khai qi said hi to me, and the other girls with her all looked at me, then I replied hi, and one of the girls rammed into the pillar outside our class, laughed like siao. Hahaha!! All the weird stuff that seldom see happening all happening. Hahahaha! Russells coming over now. Got to go. See ya:)!
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Never felt worst.. Slept at 2 last night just to finish up the sgc. That's not the main problem though, the worst thing that could have happened, it rained like crazy on the same day we had PE, and I played during pe, usually I do not if it rains. And it so happens I slept late last night or rather this morning too, making things all the worst. I have been having an extremely strong headache ever since PE ended, most likely due to my scinus(?), the pressure in my nose built up all the way to the centre of my head, pain like hell. And then the pressure went stright up my ears, so I couldn't hear anything either. Plus lethargic like hell. Supposed to stay back in school till 7 for work today, but I can't stand it any longer, going home now, feels like crap.. Really bad. Didn't eat recess or lunch because I wanted to print out the sgc, and it cane out wrong several times. Feels so drained, no energy to walk much.. Gonna go home and take a few pills for this stupid nose block and then go sleep.
Don't think too much. Just let it happen, Justin.
Don't think too much. Just let it happen, Justin.
Monday, August 16, 2010
sigh, it would really make my day.. if you just texted me instead for once..
long day today. but chem test went exceptionally well, at least I understood a majority of what I did. except the parts I missed when I wasnt in school. parts on creating a cell, or something like that. apart from that, everything went nice and smooth until I met a certain question =.= it's name was "what happens when you combust ethanol?"=.= the question said it was crbon neutral, and I took it as no carbon dioxide would be given off =.= instead, I was so clever, I created new products, apparently, when I burn ethanol, I get glucose and water instead, nice right? now I just need to prove that when you burn alcohol, you get glucose.
I swear mrs Tan is going to kill me when she sees that. Hopefully I actually get an A1 :( have gotten one for a long time..
Still coughing my wa through the day, cant eat chicken chop :( I WANT CHICHKEN CHOP =.= hopefully I recover by tomorrow, then I'll go eat 2 plates of it.
Tuition ended extremely late today too, cause chem test made school end late, and even after I actually spent effort to rush to tuition, I was late even later than usual, so stayed until about 8 at tuition instead of 7. just got home at 815 pm =.= what a nice day =.= now I have to go out again for dinner. I hate going out nowadays. Gonna stay out tomorrow in school till 7 also or so, going to mug already. If I dont catch up, I'll be toasted for this prelims, which is like 2 weeks away, I cant believe we're so close to O levels, time flies like nuts even when you're not having fun.. How I wish I could turn back time.. Go back to Primary school, when I didnt have to bother liking someone until I practically think of her 24/7.. dumb raging hormones. although, weird thing is, usually you'd like someone because she looks great, I like someone plainly cause of character =.= maybe I've studied til my brain got fried.. sigh, still thinking thinking, but that's never got me anywhere, so why do I still hope for it? sigh.. wasting time willingly and knowingly.. Am I being dumb? anyway, going back to primary school also means 4 subjects to cope with, and all of much simpler dificulty than now =.= no alcohol that burns to form glucose at least =.= didnt even have to know what on earth glucose was =.=, shucks, complicated world we live in.
Come to think of it, everything's complicated, even though I've never really bothered about any of it. Love is complicated. Studies is complicated. Relationship with friends even, is complicated, sometimes I wonder who it is I can really rely on..
Sgc, haven done it at all. $%^&*$%^&*(%$! cant stand all this. Doing SGC is Rubbish. it's all talking about how you can praise yourself =.= what good is doing that? end of the day, all the teachers have to try write something good about you based on it, and what we're actually needed to do is crap a load of rubbish on ourselves.
Great, going out to eat again. just wonderful. Where is my steak! CHICKEN CHOP=.= cant eat it yet.. sigh.. so sad.
long day today. but chem test went exceptionally well, at least I understood a majority of what I did. except the parts I missed when I wasnt in school. parts on creating a cell, or something like that. apart from that, everything went nice and smooth until I met a certain question =.= it's name was "what happens when you combust ethanol?"=.= the question said it was crbon neutral, and I took it as no carbon dioxide would be given off =.= instead, I was so clever, I created new products, apparently, when I burn ethanol, I get glucose and water instead, nice right? now I just need to prove that when you burn alcohol, you get glucose.
I swear mrs Tan is going to kill me when she sees that. Hopefully I actually get an A1 :( have gotten one for a long time..
Still coughing my wa through the day, cant eat chicken chop :( I WANT CHICHKEN CHOP =.= hopefully I recover by tomorrow, then I'll go eat 2 plates of it.
Tuition ended extremely late today too, cause chem test made school end late, and even after I actually spent effort to rush to tuition, I was late even later than usual, so stayed until about 8 at tuition instead of 7. just got home at 815 pm =.= what a nice day =.= now I have to go out again for dinner. I hate going out nowadays. Gonna stay out tomorrow in school till 7 also or so, going to mug already. If I dont catch up, I'll be toasted for this prelims, which is like 2 weeks away, I cant believe we're so close to O levels, time flies like nuts even when you're not having fun.. How I wish I could turn back time.. Go back to Primary school, when I didnt have to bother liking someone until I practically think of her 24/7.. dumb raging hormones. although, weird thing is, usually you'd like someone because she looks great, I like someone plainly cause of character =.= maybe I've studied til my brain got fried.. sigh, still thinking thinking, but that's never got me anywhere, so why do I still hope for it? sigh.. wasting time willingly and knowingly.. Am I being dumb? anyway, going back to primary school also means 4 subjects to cope with, and all of much simpler dificulty than now =.= no alcohol that burns to form glucose at least =.= didnt even have to know what on earth glucose was =.=, shucks, complicated world we live in.
Come to think of it, everything's complicated, even though I've never really bothered about any of it. Love is complicated. Studies is complicated. Relationship with friends even, is complicated, sometimes I wonder who it is I can really rely on..
Sgc, haven done it at all. $%^&*$%^&*(%$! cant stand all this. Doing SGC is Rubbish. it's all talking about how you can praise yourself =.= what good is doing that? end of the day, all the teachers have to try write something good about you based on it, and what we're actually needed to do is crap a load of rubbish on ourselves.
Great, going out to eat again. just wonderful. Where is my steak! CHICKEN CHOP=.= cant eat it yet.. sigh.. so sad.
Friday, August 13, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Better today, think I'll return to school tmr. Went through a physics paper, got the entire thing wrong, then looked through the answers.
Still coughing, sigh, back to school tmr when there's all three sciences on the same day-.- boring like anything.
Piano exam's been called off, don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, but at least I'll have more time to focus on the o lvls instead. Wasted the past 10 months playing the same few dumb songs too. Oh well..
I'm starving!! I want chicken chop! And steak! And French fries with super alot of salt!! And coke!! Ethel supposed to go out with me and eat after prelims, but prelims so far away!! I want to eat now!!:( starving!! I want curry! :( I want prata with sugar! I have a damned bottle of pepsi in the fridge but I can't drink it!! Arghhh!! I've had it with soup and bread and oatmeal! I want A FEAST! :(. Not that I'd go out with marcus's group for it=.= no offense, but I'm not the talkative type.
I want biscuits!:( chicken pie!:( yam pao!:( spaghetti!:( chicken drumsticks!:(.............
Looks like imma gonna havta eat something first:) !! Whad shoulda eat?^^ :( dunno wad I have at home, curry noodles, out of the picture, biscuits!:) in the picture^^ I've never had a problem being skinny after eating like crazy, imma go makan!!:D!!
Still coughing, sigh, back to school tmr when there's all three sciences on the same day-.- boring like anything.
Piano exam's been called off, don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, but at least I'll have more time to focus on the o lvls instead. Wasted the past 10 months playing the same few dumb songs too. Oh well..
I'm starving!! I want chicken chop! And steak! And French fries with super alot of salt!! And coke!! Ethel supposed to go out with me and eat after prelims, but prelims so far away!! I want to eat now!!:( starving!! I want curry! :( I want prata with sugar! I have a damned bottle of pepsi in the fridge but I can't drink it!! Arghhh!! I've had it with soup and bread and oatmeal! I want A FEAST! :(. Not that I'd go out with marcus's group for it=.= no offense, but I'm not the talkative type.
I want biscuits!:( chicken pie!:( yam pao!:( spaghetti!:( chicken drumsticks!:(.............
Looks like imma gonna havta eat something first:) !! Whad shoulda eat?^^ :( dunno wad I have at home, curry noodles, out of the picture, biscuits!:) in the picture^^ I've never had a problem being skinny after eating like crazy, imma go makan!!:D!!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Still sick=.= cough cough wheez wheez I'm sick of it. Nosebleed last night somemore, can smell that disgusting dried iron smell when I breathe in=.= went to see doctor again today, ran a test, found out it was influenza B. Oh well. Hopefully I recover soon, before this Friday at least. Im seeing stars as it is.
Pfft, let me in already. I've been standing outside your doors, knocking and knocking, but you've never opened up your gates. Sian. Understanding, is not easy to come by at all like this.
Coughing again. Diarrhoea. Damn it! If I don't recover from this soon, I'll.. Do something=.=
Pfft, let me in already. I've been standing outside your doors, knocking and knocking, but you've never opened up your gates. Sian. Understanding, is not easy to come by at all like this.
Coughing again. Diarrhoea. Damn it! If I don't recover from this soon, I'll.. Do something=.=
Monday, August 9, 2010
sick like anything, still havent recovered, and to make matters worst, I had nose bleed this morning. antibiotics doesnt seem to be as effective.. only thing that has dropped is the fever, it's still lying low at about 37.3 or so. haven done any work.. gonna have english oral soon as well... how sia? I usually never do anything for english oral.. drats, hopefully the topic is easy to talk about.. maybe I'll go look up some topics..
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Pfft, fever 39.2, and I'm going to school. I think that's about the limit for me.. Sigh.
You texted:) lol, made my day. Don't know if you were really sending it to me with the intention I think I feel, but I was happy to just see the words, and your name.
Now going sch, I think I'll stay a distance from you, and the others. Crazy fever=.= drop to 37.5 alr then dno how go back up to 39.2, tmr dno whether can go sch or not.. Sian. Hope I recover by today.
You texted:) lol, made my day. Don't know if you were really sending it to me with the intention I think I feel, but I was happy to just see the words, and your name.
Now going sch, I think I'll stay a distance from you, and the others. Crazy fever=.= drop to 37.5 alr then dno how go back up to 39.2, tmr dno whether can go sch or not.. Sian. Hope I recover by today.
Of all the days to fall sick, it has to be on a Thursday when all the science lessons are on the same day. I wonder if that's a good or bad thing=.= miss out everything but don't have go through 3 and a half hours of boredom. Hehe, nope, changed my mind, that's definitely good. HeheheheT.T change mind again.
Woke up sometime dead in the middle of last night, thirsty and coughing=.= ytd's mild cough has taken it's effect today I spose=.= still, here I am blogging. Should be doing work or something=.= I think I'll go back to school in te afternoon for that stupid English test. Don't want to hae to take it on some other dumb day again-.-
As I was lying in bed this morning, I was half asleep, and then I see your face there in the darkness of space with my eyes closed, and all of a sudden, a song starts playing, what song? Completely newly composed song, never heard it before anywhere=.= man, I must be losing it! Anyhow, I was trying to come up with a song the past few days, with lyrics, the lyrics meaning I wanted was how I wants to say, how I felt about someone. And now it just pops out when u least expect it. Lol, fumbled out of bed at 715 in the morning to write the song out onto a score, though it's kinda incomplete, but I got the chorus and part of the bridge=.= wrote it even though I was sick=.= beginning to wider if ishould have gone to school=.= no matter:) I'm glad I finally made it, lol, should I dedicate it to you? So freaking awkward. Hehe. Oh well. We'll see how things work out along the way:)
and I owe mr Philip Wang my book. Was supposed to lend him today. Guess I will, later maybe, when I go for the english test=.= he's been hounding me for 3 straight days, I think I really should remember to bring it later or he'll skin me.
Bodyache everywhere, slight fever, runny nose=.= coughing, ears blocked, throat inside got some damn stuck up virus tugging my nerve like he's having fun liddat=.= sounds like ENT to me too=.= except a worserer version=.= worserer was on purpose.
Kay rui just texted me to ask if I was sick, awww, I feel so touched. Sobzsobz, next thing you know ritesh will sms me too=.= .. I wonder, will you text me?:) oh well, guess it unlikely huh?
Im gonna go read book, and then go watch bleach, and slack the hell off of me=.= discipline discipline, I think I left that in the fridge=.= maybe I should go get it, discipline, that is=.= it's miraculous I made it into A class=.= don't feel like studying at all! damned darn it. Nothing to do:( read book play games^^ bb.
Woke up sometime dead in the middle of last night, thirsty and coughing=.= ytd's mild cough has taken it's effect today I spose=.= still, here I am blogging. Should be doing work or something=.= I think I'll go back to school in te afternoon for that stupid English test. Don't want to hae to take it on some other dumb day again-.-
As I was lying in bed this morning, I was half asleep, and then I see your face there in the darkness of space with my eyes closed, and all of a sudden, a song starts playing, what song? Completely newly composed song, never heard it before anywhere=.= man, I must be losing it! Anyhow, I was trying to come up with a song the past few days, with lyrics, the lyrics meaning I wanted was how I wants to say, how I felt about someone. And now it just pops out when u least expect it. Lol, fumbled out of bed at 715 in the morning to write the song out onto a score, though it's kinda incomplete, but I got the chorus and part of the bridge=.= wrote it even though I was sick=.= beginning to wider if ishould have gone to school=.= no matter:) I'm glad I finally made it, lol, should I dedicate it to you? So freaking awkward. Hehe. Oh well. We'll see how things work out along the way:)
and I owe mr Philip Wang my book. Was supposed to lend him today. Guess I will, later maybe, when I go for the english test=.= he's been hounding me for 3 straight days, I think I really should remember to bring it later or he'll skin me.
Bodyache everywhere, slight fever, runny nose=.= coughing, ears blocked, throat inside got some damn stuck up virus tugging my nerve like he's having fun liddat=.= sounds like ENT to me too=.= except a worserer version=.= worserer was on purpose.
Kay rui just texted me to ask if I was sick, awww, I feel so touched. Sobzsobz, next thing you know ritesh will sms me too=.= .. I wonder, will you text me?:) oh well, guess it unlikely huh?
Im gonna go read book, and then go watch bleach, and slack the hell off of me=.= discipline discipline, I think I left that in the fridge=.= maybe I should go get it, discipline, that is=.= it's miraculous I made it into A class=.= don't feel like studying at all! damned darn it. Nothing to do:( read book play games^^ bb.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
... I don't need anyone. My troubles will be stored only in me from now on.. I wonder how is it, that even I can't feel it? I can't feel it, I can't feel so many things anymore, I want to feel your character again, I the one that lit me up.. When I felt lonely.. Haha, looks like my dreams are the most real thing I'll get after all.
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